1/1/29 from Columbus
Happy New Year Sweetheart! Would I could say that with a kiss! Unquestionably the biggest event of the year took place on December 24. Last year at this time I didn’t hope to have that experience so soon but thanks to all that helped to bring it about. This morning I’ve been going over possible events of this new year. Needless to say it promises to be the happiest year ever. Because there are so many enjoyable events that soon are forgotten, I bought me a nice, quite large, diary. Next Christmas we may read it together. Mr. and Mrs. Carrell always keep a diary. I think it very nice, don’t you? I’ve only attempted it once before and that time it worked all right
My health is improved today as I knew it would be when I got some rest. Dad insists that I give up my work at Skaggs and I’m not sure that I won’t unless they make it more worthwhile The past three weeks has made me realize that I’ve got to take better care of myself.
Today Leonard is nine years old. Mother is going to bake him what he likes – a pie. I gave him a book entitles “Dave Dashaway Around the World” which he has devoured all morning He’s nearly half thru reading it now and it has 204 pages Leonard loves to read and study for which I am thankful. I hope so much that he will get a good education.
The folks, especially Dad, tease me a lot about being in love, buying a ring, etc. I told them somewhat of our plans. They think we are foolish for desiring to go to school more but that is a small matter. Mother said she thought that you probably wouldn’t be happy to do as we plan because she said “they all want a home”. I grant that not only you but I also want a home but I think from what you have said that you will be happy in making the kind we want in the way we have planned.
1/3/29 from Columbus
I’m having great fun writing my diary. When I wonder how it would appear to someone else or to myself several years from now. If the fun continues I may not be troubled with forgetting to record the daily program with its joys and sorrows.
I spent yesterday afternoon in the library working on my zoology theme. Today I have read, written a synopsis of a play and made up some history. Becoming tired of scholarly activity I went over to the YMCA and bathed.
Gladys Skow came this afternoon to spend two days. She, Harold and Edith have been playing rummy. Harold certainly is a clown. I can’t help but laugh at him even though I am concentrating on something serious. He plays center on the Columbus basketball team.
I wrote to Dan Neifert today. I also wrote to Prof Peters today. I tried to see the county superintendent today but he was out of town. I’ll try again. No door shall remain unopened until we are satisfied.
Friday I finished my make-up work and then had to hurry to do all I wanted to before Harry came to bring me to Central. I stopped to see the county superintendent. Though h was very cordial he didn’t tell me much that is very encouraging. He spoke of a few possible openings in the small high schools around Columbus and several rural two room schools that possibly might be open. The high school positions are not very attractive, and only I could teach. We might possibly teach in a two room rural school but I think I would prefer most anything else. He gave me the name of the superintendent over the school by Madison. I’ll write to her and find out what I can. One thing is certain dearest, and that is you aren’t going to teach at Allen another year. There is much responsibility placed upon a man when he undertakes to care for a wife but your commitment to the effect that you would do as I planned made me happy. Men like to feel the burden on responsibility, they like to feel that there is some loved ones whose existence and happiness depends upon them. That’s how I feel.
I wrote to Mr. Peters but after getting your letter this morning I almost wish that I hadn’t. No, I’m glad did. For some reason, though I know it is utterly foolish, your letter stirred may of those unhappy feelings of last spring. But the sooner that matter is forgotten the better. I almost shudder when I think of it.
Sweetheart, it remains for you to plan our wedding. In want it to be just as you have planned and as you now desire. You see, provided nothing unforeseen happens only seven months intervene. With all we have to do and look forward to these months will fly.
You spoke of Ralph being responsible for much of your happiness and of course I was curious. His is a dear boy, I love him a great deal. He and I can talk as only you know how since our fellowship with him is quite mutual. I can’t talk with Merl that way anymore He is always so sour and pessimistic about life and its many situations.
If you have access to December and January’s Atlantic monthly I wish you would read in there the story of Lincoln’s courtship to Ann Rutledge. It is most interesting. It makes me love Lincoln more and more. It also make me wonder what people would conclude about our love and lives by reading our correspondence. They couldn’t help but be impressed with the mutuality of our love as well as the passion and sincerity of it.
If I can manage to sit up for a while I’ll attempt to finish this letter before I retire. I’ve felt miserable since Sunday. My back has driven me to distraction. The doctor says it’s the effects of the flu.
As to the question of what to do about your “darling” who stole, I think I would try, as you may have done, to understand what was causing that boy to do as he does. Perhaps environment has produced his attitude or perhaps there is some physical cause. Remember that is only a suggestion coming form 150 miles from your school.
Many of the boys envy my lounging robe. They think it is so pretty. Kenneth, my roommate, told me to tell you that he thought it the prettiest he has ever seen I love it a whole lot – mostly because it came from you.
I think I shall soon be placed on the faculty here or rather I ought to be. I have to teach tomorrow both President’s class in Friend’s History and Mr. Crosbie’s class in German. I enjoy such things.
It is a relief not to be working each evening. I never appreciated the time as much before as I do now.
I’ve been writing student campaign letters tonight, let’s hope I don’t get my letters confused What would I solicit from you? Well, I wish prospective students were as responsive to my requests as is my sweetheart
I had a reply to my recent letter from Dan Neifert. Of course he spoke about how difficult it was to secure schools but he also gave me some advice about applying. He suggested that he and Mildred aren’t intending to teach again where they are at present but he said nothing about our applying there. He said that he and Mildred would be at Plainview Quarterly Meeting and if I could come there he would tell me more. Do you plan to attend the meeting?
My big difficulty now is with finances since I’m not earning as much as I did. Unless a miracle or something happens I’m going to need to borrow more than I had planned Now my Ford needs a license and some repairs, board bills are coming due and second semester expenses approaching But then why should I worry I can only do one thing at a time. I have facts enough to believe that I’ll not perish
O, dasz sie ewig grunen bliebe,
Die schone zeit der jungen Liebe!
From Schaller’s “The Song of a Bell” translated, “Oh that the beautiful time of youthful love might forever remain green.” “To be, or not to be that’s the question” (be married). I ponder over it daily but with no avail. Perhaps it will become easier as other things materialize. I realize that we feel differently when we are apart, not that we love the less, but we aren’t so urgent in our demands. I can’t decide what we should do. There are so many things that enter in to complicate matters – finances, our dreamed of plans, your interest and what you would be able to do to be happy, etc. While I’m more anxious than words can tell to be with you I want that we shall not take steps that will be a mistake. I wish you would make the decision dear, I’ll abide by it.
You would have enjoyed our roller skating party last Friday night. We went to Grand Island at 8:00 and skated until 10:30 then we rented the hall for another hour. It was more fun when we were alone I thought of the last time we skated at Crystal Lake near Sioux City and, of course, wished for you. After holding up Florence, Lucy Miller (175 lb.) and Pauline Hill (145) or Gladys Skow in the attempt to teach them to skate my arms ached and I was wet with sweat I would much rather skate with you. We had a good time and expect to go again soon.
You certainly do have your trials and tribulations I’m wondering where the end of them may be. What on earth would I do if some other man should take you away. Well, that cannot be permitted at all. I guess I’ll have to come and live with you as your protector.
It has been terribly cold here for the past few days. This morning at 5:00 the thermometer registered five below. It was my misfortune to have to walk to town yesterday and I nearly froze coming home against the wind.
President came back from his trip south with many interesting things to tell us about I had a conference with him about a proposed boy’s camp project which I am working on Thus far the idea has been received encouragingly by those with whom I will be working I’ll tell you more about it soon.
I heard from the school near Madison but received no encouragement. The superintendent said that the man and wife who are now there will remain and that the other man teacher would need to teach French and manual training. Besides he must be married.
My dear, dear girl you don’t know how much I regret your present unhappiness. I’m anxious about your condition. I know a remedy that could help and that will be applied in only two weeks more. I’ll kiss your cares away for you. How I wish you were here tonight.
I don’t feel that you are a hindrance in any way to me. Rather it’s a happy thought to think of you waiting for me, ready to love and assume responsibilities with me and to live a life of happy service. What could challenge me more? Thank you for your assurance in whatever shall be my decision, you may rest assured that your desire urges e to attempt with all my strength to make our marriage possible. I’m confident that once we discover God’s will in the matter then a way will be provided. So we must labor patiently in high hopes.
Sunday afternoon has come again and with it the pleasurable task of writing to you. I’ve just come from playing ping-pong, quite a leisurely pastime. In Meeting this morning I was far away – I was there is body but in mind and spirit I was framing speeches of my own, making investigation and doing research work all with you.
Friday was a happy day in that I completed zoology work. What a relief! After all, though, I have gotten some worthwhile things from the course. The test hasn’t been taken yet; I wish it were. In the evening a group of us boys went out south of town and played basketball.
This week I hope to find time to investigate schools more. I’m in a ticklish position. I hate to stake my chances all on getting a school where both of us can teach for fear that that will fail and neither of us have work. Yet I dislike applying very many places for myself for fear that I would get a school where both couldn’t teach. What would you suggest I do?
George has undertaken an unenviable job. Harry Foreman purchased a hamburger stand in town and hired George to run it half of the time – from four in the afternoon until midnight for seven days a week. It necessitated George giving up debate and many other things but the offer of $35 a month and board was too tempting. One can hardly blame him however since this will enable him to earn his expenses for next semester whereas otherwise he would have had to borrow.
Registration days are next Tuesday and Wednesday This week I’ll need to borrow $125 to pay my expenses for the second semester. That will put me in debt a little more than $200 at the bank that I will need to repay next summer. If it wasn’t for this debt there would remain little doubt in my mind about our being married even though we couldn’t teach together. We’ll just have to see what can develop by spring.
We played basketball last night – two games and won both of them- so I didn’t get to write so I’ll write this morning our dormitory team has been undefeated thus far. We just play teams from communities nearby.
Darling, I take your dare. I shall write to Mr. Bell Sunday It would be an ideal situation if both you and I would teach there since your experience would be more valuable to you there perhaps than elsewhere Shall I tell him of our desire to be married? I think I shall explain matters to him just as they are. I’m also going to apply at Plainview.
Guy Puckett wrote to Kenneth and mentioned that he speak with me about a possible scholarship which he had learned of The scholarship was for $1000 to be used at the University of New York to study international affairs and diplomacy – just my dish – so I wrote to Guy to find out more about it I haven’t given up going to school entirely Everything would be to our advantage if we could go to school this next year.
Tests, tests, tests – well, they are all over now. I am worried about zoology (as much as I ever worry). Two of my papers have been returned, History of Education which I got 96 and German II on which I only got 95. I wrote for four successive hours in Mr. Watson’s room on History of Ed and U.S. History. I thought so hard my head actually ached.
The gang is going skating again but I think I won’t go. It tires me so and we stay so late. I wouldn’t mind that if I didn’t need to be on my feet all day and half the night tomorrow at the store I guess I’m getting old. Today I can do about as I please – no tests. I wish you were here. Do you often think of the past four years that we were in school together? Special spots and occasions always make me think of former times.
Just a few lines tonight since tomorrow is the time for two examinations and two papers to be finished and it is now getting late. I took one test today, and registered for next semester. I thought I would get off easy this semester but I’m now scheduled for 17-1/2 hours including debate and glee club. I don’t mid. however since some of the work will be quite easy I’m taking two new courses child psychology and High School methods. Do you have a book for the latter course? If you have it would you mind my using it? I’ll pay you well, Sweetheart. Gold or silver I have none but such as I have I shall be happy to give you. You like my payment, don’t you Sweetheart? I wish all my debts could be settles so happily. Did I pay you for the other books you sent?!! I don’t remember whether we especially credited some of the kisses to that account or not maybe you should collect again.
Kenneth, my roommate, and I have spent part of the evening in talking over personal affairs such as Ralph and I used to do Kenneth is a dear boy yet he makes me feel humble. He is in love with a splendid lady who is also here in school. His life hasn’t been all he has wanted it to be. He holds me somewhat of an example of perfection – or so he says. I’m glad but I feel most unworthy.
I have been having what Guy Solt calls a “thick” week. These last two months my faith has been put to a severe test. At times God seemed real to me and at other times so far away and unreal. I have been at a loss to help you. I think that a lot of your present and past difficulties are attributed to the lack of thought and meditation Even now with all your work – which I realize is much – I think you would increase your efficiency, effectiveness and certainly your happiness if you refused to be caught in the whirl of life and take time to be at one with the Source of strength. This isn’t said without realizing how hard it has been for me to do it during the past weeks nor in a scolding spirit . If I were to trust myself alone, which apparently is the thing all of us do, I shudder at what the outcome might be.
Last Friday I wrote to New York University regarding possible scholarships and also to Hartford. I’ll write to Mr. Bell and to Plainview this week.
Only four more days until I may see you. Oh if this weather doesn’t make me tired! Especially when there is danger that it might prevent my seeing you. I’ll be traveling with the quartet. I’ll do my best to get the boys to plan to start early Friday afternoon – I think they will provided the weather permits. I will be more disappointed than you can imagine if it is stormy..
You do have some thrilling times with men don’t you? First they cause you worry and then they scare you by peeking in your window, then they get in your bed. I’m almost afraid for what might happen next.
I’ve just finished a letter to Mr. Bell. I wonder what he will think when he gets it. You will have to intercede for me whenever it becomes necessary I told him of our desire to marry and to teach together next year.
Mrs. Boone’s brother died yesterday, consequently breakfast isn’t being served and Lucy Miller and Edith are cooking the other meals Mrs. Boone will probably return on Friday.
It seems lonesome to think of you so far away when we parted only about six hours ago. How I hated to leave you! I hope you arrived home safely and warmly. I shall be anxious until I hear from you. Driving was mad bad by the sleet that continually froze on the windshield. We made very good time. Horace drove part way and then the boys sang as I drove. I love to hear them.
I’m going to investigate the possibilities of my locating a job or an opportunity to study Political Science and law. I’m almost convinced that God doesn’t want me to preach – in some ways I’m disgusted with our Quaker church. It is certainly unfortunate that our meeting discourages initiative, free thinking and the desire to grow. I want so much to find the place in life in which we can both find the fulfillment of our ambitions and dreams. Help me dear with whatever suggestions you have.
Busy! My, my! With debate and the rush on the bookstore I’ve about all I care to swing. Mrs. Carrell’s verdict was rendered this evening regarding the division of the debate teams for the debate with York next Tuesday. Estellene, Leland, and I will debate the affirmative; Kenneth, Horace Melton, and Horace Mott will uphold the negative. We stay at home for this first debate.
The application came for the $1000 scholarship to New York University. From this one’s tuition will be taken, the remainder of the sum would be would be mailed directly to me (or us) each month. All that is required is that the student spend 8 o from Oct to May taking resident graduate work. If I should be fortunate enough to obtain such a scholarship would you be willing that we should live in New York next year? I’m going to apply unless you object. It’s quite an opportunity and I’m quite optimistic about getting it.
Sad news came via Edith from home. She said that Lawrence and Rose’s house had caught fire and the roof had been burned off. Fortunately none of their possessions were injured. They are now living with a neighbor.
My heart overflows with love for you tonight and my mind has been with you many times today Your letter was a great help to me coming as it did when I was so rushed. This has been the busiest week ever – we’re getting ready for our first debate.
As to which of us has been the truer – that’s a subject for speculation. You remember no doubt what I told you last year about my going with other girls. I have kept my word. I’ve had four dates this year – and all of them with you my dear.
My letter from r. Bell merely stated that I would be considered should a vacancy occur. He stated, however, that he questioned whether there would be an opening that would interest me. I’ve heard nothing as yet from Mr. Money. I have taken some steps toward obtaining a scholarship.
We were fortunate today in having a Chinese boy who has been born and raised Hawaii with us from Hastings College. He spoke in joint YM and YW meetings today and at our joint supper this evening. Such contacts only further convince me that my line of work is in international affairs. I certainly hope for the opportunity to study further in history and international relations.
When I bore your message to Mrs. Carrell, she thanked you and said she often thought of you. She says she certainly misses you – I assured her you did also. When I mentioned that your heart was here she said sincerely ” I knew that.” The quartet boys just teased me. Anyway, I’m happy that people can tell I’m in love – I’m proud of it – especially when my fiancé is as wonderful as she is.
It certainly was most fortunate that Quarterly meeting was last week. Yesterday morning it was 18 below zero here and it has been stormy for the past two or three days. Just now the ground is covered with snow and more is falling.
I’m always made happy over suggestions from you of what our home shall be like. I think of them so many, many times and just picture us doing them. I also think of other suggestions which you make such as purchasing nightgowns, collecting dishes, etc. When dearest can we enjoy what our hearts want most?
Congratulation on your re-election though I hope you won’t need to accept the position again. Apparently your work has been satisfactory despite your feeling that you have accomplished little . I knew you would succeed
I’ve not heard further from NY Univ. I’ve asked Mr. Carrell and Mr. Watson to write letters of recommendation. I expect to know definitely whether I will be granted a scholarship by March 20.
Do you know what I’ve been thinking of for the last few days (aside from debate)? It’s about the possibility of going into business in Central City or elsewhere. Really, when I seriously think about it the suggestion is very attractive. If we could succeed at such it would make possible what I would like to doing the a few years. You have rather laughed when I have made this suggestion but for some time I have had as the height of my ambition to enter politics. Did you ever know one with such wild ideas and dreams? Unless a transformation is complete I’m not going to preach.
At last the reconstruction of my Ford is under way Clifford said he would completely overhaul it if I would pay him five dollars and buy the necessary parts. It will cost about $15 to put it in perfect shape. I don’t have the money but I expect to secure it before long. After having a good fixing and a coat of paint I think the old limousine will weather the storm of next summer and maybe next winter.
I must tell you how the debate just turned out. Both of our teams were defeated 2-1. It was a lot of fun – you know how much I enjoy debating. I feel that with this debate to our experience we will be able to do better in our next one.
I too feel that in those application blanks sent to us lie the solution of our needs. Mr. Money said that they were in need of two such as us. He said he didn’t know how his board would feel about him recommending Mrs. Money’s cousin but he would place your application before them. I too feel you ought to suggest as a minimum wage $100. What shall I suggest? Mr. Knapp said that I ought to request $150 but I think I’ll request $125. That would then be $225 together. Mr. Money said elections would take place Mar 15. This should be the time I should hear about my possible scholarship. If we had to make a choice between the two opportunities which would you take?
Will you be my valentine? You’ve been with mean this day for the past four years. I’m sure you ought to be here today
I’ve had a touch of the late hours this week too. For the past two evenings our glee club has performed at the Donelson at the college benefit show. The picture “Buster Keaton in College” was a scream – most of our sides ached after the show. It was so dub that it was ridiculous at times.
Oh yes, grade slips are out again. Can you imagine what I got in Zoology? Only 78 which represents more about the subject than I actually know. Somehow I love nature yet I can’t get very enthused over the study of it. Fortunately my other grades are respectable.
Before I close – my eyes are half closed now – I must tell you that six young ladies from the dormitory are now serving campus sentence for several weeks. They skipped off to a dance last Tuesday night. Edith is one – I told her I ought to spank her. Can you feature my doing that?
I become more and more convinced that my life can be of the greatest service it is directed toward international affairs. We boys, Horace Mott, Kenneth, Clifford, and I have just had a “bathroom session” in which we have drawn pictures of our aspired futures. Theirs are quite different from mine. I guess I have a too restless spirit. It won’t take me long to choose if we have the option of deciding between teaching and going to school on a $1000 scholarship. I suppose I ought not to plan too much on the possibility of getting it because no doubt there are others with better qualifications than I who are applying yet it so nearly fits what I hope for that I am planning a great deal on it.
I’m mailing my application for the school in Crofton tomorrow and also a copy of my oration “For Whom” to New York. President Carrell and Mr. Watson have written letters of recommendation.
I’m anxious about your eyes. I’m glad you went to see the doctor. I suppose the strain of your work has caused the trouble. I hate to see you working so hard. I should love to relieve you of you tasks if possible. One reason that I would choose to go to school if possible would be to relieve you the responsibility of working.
Your query as to whether we know for sure that we will not have children if we marry is inaccurate. I hope to be a father some time but not until we can become settled. I think you need have no fear of the safety of birth control methods which I have suggested, at least from what little I know about them. I shall endeavor to become better informed before we are married.
Pat Heaton will graduate with our class this year. He took three years here you remember and then took three at Creighton. Because he has thus had six years of work, NCC can grant him his AB at the same time that Creighton grants him his law degree. With him graduating our class numbers eight. Not so bad, do you think?
I have had more time this week to think and study because efforts on debate aren’t so intense. I have been reading a book in connection with psychology and high school methods that has been most interesting. I think you would enjoy it and probably better understand your boys and your sweetheart. It is entitled, “The Boy and His Gang”.
I should like to see you in your glasses. I’ll venture you look just like my same dear girl.
It is a real struggle to decide what to do. Supposing I get the scholarship? Shall I take it and be far away from you or shall I refuse it and teach? Supposing we are elected at Crofton; what shall we do? Or yet what would another year’s absence from you mean to us. I should love to have you finish college, Ruth. Mr. Watson was saying today that he hoped you would be back next year. I hate to see you teach in Allen again. If I go east to school, which I think I ought to do if at all possible, it would be better for you and for me if you would go to school. If I teach I would much prefer to have you in school. Of course I know you will say “where will I get the means?”. If I teach the solution is easy and if I should get the scholarship I would be able to help you I will be most happy to guarantee all your expenses if you will only accept.
I have been informed of a vacancy in the Dannebroy high school. I wrote an application last night. A most welcome letter came from our dear friend Dan saying that he had been elected superintendent at Brunswick and he would aid me in securing a position if I thought it wise. President Carrell also mentioned a possible position in St. Paul.
Ivan suggested to me just a while ago that you and I be married with him and Lillie this spring. I told him we would think on it but that it appeared that we would not get married this year. He suggested that if we didn’t’ they would like to have us stand with them. Would you do that?
Edith has met with one or two responses from application. I’m anxious that she get a school. She will make quite a good teacher I believe. The folks are well and happy. Edith told me that Leonard’s basketball team was going to play this week and that he was all excited over it. I can imagine that dear little fellow playing so wholeheartedly and excitedly. I’d love to see his game.
I’m sending the dates of our debates. I hope you can come see me sometime. Wouldn’t it be fun if you could come down for one of the debates at home? If you don’t come I don’t know when I will get enough funds accumulated to come and see you.
I have felt like weeping as I have written this letter but that doesn’t help me much. I wish I were sure about things. Here is one of the times that I would be lost without the knowledge that God sees our needs and is more interested that the outcome be wise than perhaps we are. I am confident of His guidance, therefore it behooves me to seek patiently His will.
At times, like tonight, I feel quite pessimistic about the value of NCC and the prospects for its future. I became almost exasperated when in debate meeting, because Mrs. Carrell wasn’t there, the group would do nothing but act foolish. Really the spirit of things here bores me sometimes. The atmosphere is so trivial and nonsensical. Often I crave some real conversation and study. I went over to the girl’s dorm and talked with Miss Thornburg until 7:30. She feels as do I about things so I was relived.
I’m awfully anxious to hear again from you to learn of your reactions to my last letter. Though I believe I know well enough what they will be. I’m trying to shift my mental focus to a year from this summer but I have great difficulty in doing it since it did seem quite possible that we would be able to marry this summer. I have always said we wouldn’t get married until you were sure that was what we should do. I love you with my whole heart. You have wisely led throughout our courtship, which has been glorious, so it is wise that you always lead.
This morning after Horace Mott failed to prepare to speech at district 50, Kenneth and I rallied to the occasion. We had a great time and people seemed to greatly enjoy our service. This evening our gang had charge of the service at the Methodist Church. It was snowing which caused the group to be small. We enjoy such work but it robs Sunday of its restfulness.
Since taking the course in high school methods this semester my mind has been directed to the work of teaching. We are now studying the subject of discipline. This subject has keen interest for me because of what your and Merl’s experiences have been. The course has made me quite anxious to teach. From what others tell me I suppose the course in invaluable but nevertheless I expect it to be of great help. The course in Child Psychology makes me cast looks into the future to see how successful you and I would be with raising our children.
I would do anything to make you happy. I would that I could give you all you desire yet perhaps our present status is best. It hurts me greatly to feel our love and then realize my inability to care for you. I trust you will be patient with me. I want so much to make you happy and also make wise choices regarding our future.
I’ve had mingled feelings as I read your scolding, you know too well how that makes me feel. But I’m glad I have someone who can bring me down to life and tell me what is wrong. I think if you could witness some of the frivolity here of which I spoke you would feel as I do. For instance, throwing bread the entire length of the tale when it is called for. While I want to have a good time and do, I like to see some seriousness particularly in those who are going to college for the express purpose of learning to think and study – else why spend money for school? I grant that perhaps I stopped sowing my wild oats too early and that life might be easier if I took the time and money to enjoy myself. I have told you before I have tried to attend all the entertainments that my finances would permit. You should be here when I get to playing ping pong. I love to play that game and though it may seem impossible I often play it when I ought to be doing more serious things. When the college gave the benefit show I did just what you told me would be good for me and it did do some good. Our chorus of eight men sang “The Song of the Road” and we dressed in old clothes, I had on a “vagabond” hat. I had the time of my life and would do it over again if possible.
You make me feel ashamed when you tell me that I infer that you are trivial, for I know you are not. I haven’t voluntarily intended to grow old and I think I do not compare unfavorably with other students who have gone through college. I am what I am and I have tried to be the best of my ability to be the man that I should be. Maybe someday you will love me for it.
Harold was in a basketball game in Columbus tournament. I wish I could have gone home but I didn’t have the money. Lawrence and Rose have a new car. Of course it hurts me to think that others can have nice things and do what they like when I have chosen to spend all my money and effort in getting an education and have to live on the border of starvation. However, I’m not sorry, my heart would not rest with doing what others do.
I have great respect for you mother’s attitude toward her children, including me. I love her more each time I am at your home. I know the best thing for us would be to be married this summer it will be hard for me to decide in favor of it now knowing how you feel and also your friends and parents.
You ask me when you can come see me. It would make me so happy. Any weekend it is possible for you. Let me know when you can come and I will plan things for you. I’ll show you that I can control myself and can show you a good time.
No doubt you will be surprised to receive this letter after the word I sent the other evening. I’m permitted to write only upon the condition that this letter be fumigated, and that the envelope and stamp shall not be licked by me or other “unclean” person. It’s hard to tell who might read this before you do.
I fear you may have been worrying some from your brief knowledge of our situation. Truly, dear, this is the most tragic thing that has happened since I have been here. You can count yourself fortunate that you are away. Miss Sara Sinall, a freshman who lives near Archer, took ill with what seemed to be tonsillitis last Monday night. She died yesterday morning at six o’clock. Her presence and association in school last Monday has made it quite probable that others might get the disease. School was closed Friday morning after it was made sure that she had spinal meningitis. The psychology of the whole situation has been most depressing. We were inoculated yesterday so it is not likely that any of the dorm students will become ill. I was most miserable yesterday because I awoke with a head ache and a sore throat – symptoms of the disease I am told. Dr. Ross came out to do the inoculations and checked me over. I felt relieved this morning when I awoke feeling better. You need have no fear about me because I think there will be no other cases occurring.
Added to the situation is the fact that this morning Mrs. Bales had a stroke and died.
We will not have any spring vacation now so I hardly know when it might be possible for me to come and see you. I had it all planned to surprise you last Friday by
dropping in to see you until I was informed that we couldn’t leave the campus.
I’ve had a long nap this afternoon – that’s about all there is to do. During these few days we have played ping pong, baseball and have done everything else conceivable.
While I’ve been in college the spirit of things has been with me, there have been few real struggles – either moral or physical – the question in my mind is what will happen to me when I actually face realities as you are meeting them this year? I’m determined, as you are, to win at any cost. You would be ashamed of me if I didn’t.
I was awfully disappointed to have to waste the fire I had stored for the Grand Island debate when it was cancelled last Friday. You can’t imagine how much I love to debate. This year it is so much easier for me to grasp the meaning of things and to get the important things in the debate.
Your “nice” letter was very timely and appropriate. These days would have been worse than they have been if it hadn’t been natural. Perhaps it’s good for me to be scolded but it hurts me a lot. I suppose you will have innumerable occasions to bring me to task when we are married, yet I dread to think of being scolded very often. Anyway, I’ll love you so much that you won’t need to.
I’m proud of you, Ruth, because of the way you manage yourself among your co-workers. Anybody can be mean and ugly but it takes real character to be kind and forgiving. Even here among the boys there is much criticism. Just now there are two boys talking in the hall about Mrs. Carrell and reciting wherein she is at fault. It’s too bad that we incline to judge a person by externals.
Regarding the signing of your contract, I wish you would think it wise to not sign it and look forward to marrying me regardless of whether we can teach or I go to NY. I know why you don’t decide that way but if you would do as I would like, that would be my choice.
What have we done this week? We had a radio delivered last Monday so we listened to the inaugural program. I enjoyed the proceedings greatly, especially Mr. Hoover’s address. I look for progress during his administration. I’ve worked on my car until it is almost in perfect condition again. Monday evening we had a wiener roast in the gym of Hord Hall. After that we did just what we all like best: some “spooned”, some played games, some listened to the radio, and other of us discussed and argued. I think we talked on every subject under the sun. Last night the girls invited us to their “La Quarentina” night club. The program was an imitation of a Spanish night club. We had a good time. For once again I made a fool of myself. It’s too bad you missed seeing me do that. We’ve only had two restrictions: we can’t leave the campus nor can we say what we want in our letters. It has been considered wise to write as few letters as possible.
I had a letter from Dannebrog where I had applied saying that they had elected their teachers. I also had a letter from NY saying all my credentials had been received but the committee on awards would not meet until April 15.
Your letter today almost made me cry, sweetheart. Just think here I am so far from you and you wearing yourself out and even crying at night. I will come to see you as soon as I can. Spring vacation starts Mar. 22. If I can scrape together ten dollars I will come then.
I should dislike looking back years from now and thinking that you did not voluntarily decide when we would be married. If I thought the reasons why you hesitate were personal – that you weren’t ready yet to settle down – the matter would be different. Then under no circumstances would I ask you to marry me this summer. But if your reasons are what you tell me – that you don’t want to interfere with my future – then I am sure that you would contribute more to my present and future by being my wife next year than by being away.
We lost our debate to Dana 2-1. I felt satisfied with the decision though Mrs. Carrell did not. I didn’t do nearly as well tonight as I should but Estellene and Joe did quite well. We debate Kearney next Tuesday. Our team goes away this time.
Things are continually happening to add variety and interest to life. Our terrible incident, the death of Sarah, was one of those to change the common trend of affairs; visitors have also added. Four Friends have all been our guests. You know my present status of mind and hart after listening to such Friends as these.
I’m sorry I said what I did in my last letter, not because I have changed my mind but because of the way I said it. I hate to think of your having to break your contact once you sign it and yet I see why you prefer not to marry unless we get a scholarship or a plural position. I’m glad something happened at Crofton. Now we have fewer possibilities to keep making us anxious. When Mr. Hoover (regional secretary of the YMCA) was here he told me more about the school in NY. Thank you sweetheart for saying you would go with me if I get the scholarship but I won’t know until April.
Do you remember of our thinking once upon a time about the possibility of us doing social work for a while? Today I have been thinking about that. We wouldn’t earn anything except living expenses but we would get good and interesting experience. Just a suggestion or perhaps a “wild goose” idea of mine.
So you paddled him. I should have enjoyed watching you. I venture I would have had a good laugh. I’m glad your boys aren’t large so you can develop great strength – you might then be able to deal with me in such a manner. As long as clothes baskets are handy I think I can defend myself.
Those samples of your children’s work that you sent me were indeed interesting. Those children don’t do so badly. Taking all into consideration I think they aren’t nearly as bad as they might be.
3/12/29 From Kearney
I was greatly grieved to learn about Chester’s condition. Your parents have certainly under gone a sever ordeal. I hope you will keep optimistic through all your trials. There is always sunshine after the rain. Perhaps you may be happy by now.
I don’t feel entirely happy myself yet my despondency is cause by more trivial matters. We just lost our debate, yet I’m confident we won. I have never felt as completely victorious as after the debate this evening and then the judges voted negatively.
Your letter made me happy because I had become quite anxious over Chester’s condition. I wonder how we will live through some of the difficulties which must inevitably come to us.
We returned yesterday morning for Kearney. Before leaving we all went out to see Clifford Drinkall. He was awfully happy to see us and he told us of his work, school, friends , and hopes. Shortly after he was sent there he was put to work in the bakery and he told us that he ordinarily bakes about 250 loaves of bread a day. By working hard and accomplishing certain other feats he could shorten his term somewhat. It’s hard to believe that these boys in their immaturity and innocence are responsible for their actions.
I heard from Money today who said the positions had been filled. I still have several possibilities in mind I must write now to my financiers. I need advice about the markets, stocks, bonds, etc.!!! The more I think the more remote becomes the possibility of our marrying this summer…
Another woman has won my heart, but not in the way you have the woman of whom I write is Miss Brown, our new pastor. As you know I had a few misgivings about what she might be but those have vanished. Tonight she spoke about China to which she wants to return soon. Some of the stories and conditions that she pictured are horrible and grievous. It makes me very grateful for what privileges we enjoy and also determined that the advantages I enjoy shall be used for the welfare of a needy world and people.
Another pleasant surprise was mine when Edith came into the hall this noon and said I had company. Of course I guess it to the folks, but the thought flashed through my mind supposing it was you! I was happy anyway when it proved to be the folks.
All of a sudden it has occurred to me, what if I shouldn’t get either a school or the scholarship? Well, that would complicate matters some but we mustn’t worry unnecessarily. I think I will be more patient and calm until we can decide what best to do.
Complication have arisen which makes my coming next weekend improbable. My how I hate to think of not getting to see you as I had hoped! In the first place I haven’t the money to make the trip. Second, my car is not yet fully repaired because of a delay in getting the generator. Worse still is the fact that next Saturday is the final day of a two week sale at the store and the boss almost begs me to stay. He says it will be the biggest day of the year and that he almost has to have me. To say no would almost necessitate giving up my work on Saturdays which I need quite badly.
Congressman Howard was here to speak last Friday. We certainly enjoyed him, yet he is a very different man than is commonly expected. We didn’t talk much politics because Mr. Howard chose to tell personal experience, history, and, best of all, poetry.
I must tell you a big joke as far as I’m concerned. Already the women have set their snares to entrap me. Like a bolt out of the blue I learned that a girl, Ruth Crain, who lives out at district 50 had a “smash” on me. Three years ago I solicited her while working for the college. That was the first I knew here. After that when I have gone to district 50 I have met her there. When we were out there recently she asked me about Shelton schools and I had Edith contact her. Almost immediately I got a long personal letter which, to be frank, I didn’t appreciate. Well, Fred Weeks told me that he heard I was going with her. I wasn’t feeling very happy over the thoughts of anybody thinking such a thing when this girl comes into the store last night and asked me for a date! Imagine such a thing!
Dear, do you realize you will soon be 21 and as old as I?? Won’t you feel big to be a woman? You see dear, that thus far I’m not the classical man who accidentally forgets the date of his finance’s or wife’s birthday and I hope I never do. Such things make life happier and more beautiful.
My heart breaks to be unable to see you as I had hoped. I shall come to see you one week from this Friday regardless of my work.
Surely I’ll play the game, my love. Thought we don’t carry out your little game this Friday I know we will in our own minds. You are a dear to think of nice little things like that. Though they are making believe I hope you will always do them.
One dear boy, Leland Johannsen, came to me Sunday morning in great sorrow and anxiety for help. He felt I was the only on with whom he might confide. He felt that he had contracted venereal disease and so you can appreciate how he might feel. I felt sorry for him since it wasn’t his fault, he didn’t get it from relationships with women, he isn’t a boy like that, but if that is what it was he got it from some public source. Leland considers me father and authority so I was happily obliged to console and assist him. We went to the doctor yesterday. As yet no further developments have occurred.
Last night Kenneth, my roommate, wanted me to give him “a talk” as he called it. He had had a dispute with his girl, one which was similar to some of ours. So again I happily performed my fatherly function. I enjoy doing such things. They convince me of the joy of service. Needless to say, I enjoy the experience I am getting by doing such things. Thank you but I wouldn’t feel right to use it. If I work next Friday and Saturday and if my efforts to obtain a loan materialize I will be able to come on my own money. Thank you a lot for your offer to help me, but unless I absolutely have to use it to come see you I shall repay you.
It is with a realization of what we might be doing at the present time had plans worked as we had planned that I begin writing this evening. We can live in happy anticipation until next Friday.
At last we won our debate! Last evening Orville, Estellene, and I defeated Midland 2-1. The negative team won over Dana 3-0 on Tuesday but lost last night 2-1. On the whole we aren’t doing too badly.
You are a dear to love your family so much. Did I tell you that in a recent study that I made regarding Nebraska Yearly Meeting I read statements found in one source that were your father’s words? His part as well as his families’ efforts at Elk Valley were referred to. To read such things makes me conscious of the splendid heritage that is yours.
You are the first to suggest that I was an “author”. You must be careful what impressions you give of me because when I’m actually found out you may be considered untruthful.
Tomorrow I’ll work to finish putting my Ford into shape. In the afternoon I must “shovel” beans and “auction” prunes, occasionally sell a piece of bologna or a hunk of Limburger cheese. I’ll work all day Saturday.
Do you realize we will be together again in just five days? I can hardly wait. Clifford and I will leave either from here or from Columbus rather early Friday that we might be there in time to see the “gang”.
So some man, Marvin, has attempted to analyze you. Dear, pass this conclusion on to him from me, that he had just as well give up any hopes of arriving at a satisfactory conclusion. I’ve tried to figure you out now for five years with but meager success.
You may laugh again but I hope you won’t need to again soon over the same situation. Ruth Crain persists in attempting to secure a date; however, the more she persists the more I insist that it shall not be. She wrote me a letter wanting me to go to or return from the Grand Island debate with her. I told her “no”! I also told her that I wouldn’t take her to Elgin to apply for a school. I nearly became provoked when her picture came in the mail on Friday. I haven’t looked at it yet, I don’t intend to. I’m going to return it tomorrow.
We didn’t get back from Grand Island until 1:45 a.m. so I need to write to you this morning. We closed our debate season last night with two victories, 2-1 & 3-0.
If Clifford can arrange to take a test on Thursday rather than Friday we will leave here Thursday, stop at Fullerton and Monroe, and then stay all night in Columbus. I ought to be arriving sometime in the afternoon, I hope by the time school is out. We will plan a big time and, I hope, leave you in better condition than you seem to have been after last weekend.
Dear Guy Solt is certainly welcome home. He is so helpful and sympathetic to my needs. I certainly appreciate him. It is he who has given me much encouragement and relief from some of my worries in the past few days. I’ll tell you more about what he has told me next Friday.
At last I am in the harness again. It seems good yet I have a great deal of work to do. It was hard to leave you. We had no difficulty what ever with our car until we were within three miles of Columbus OUr Ford had been leaking oil until it became so low that we burned out another bearing. We drove slowly home. After supper at my home we tried to get it fixed but none would do it. We stayed overnight and got back to Central by dinner. With your financial help and that of Dad’s I didn’t have to go so deeply in debt as I thought I might have to. Thank you sweetheart.
It was good to be home even for a short while. The kiddies are the dearest things, I could love them to death almost. Leonard has growing interests and pleasures. Now his spare time is spent in playing marbles and ball. Chester also has his bag of marbles. Katherine showed me her report card that was quite good. I can’t imagine those two being naughty in school. Harold is working hard on an operetta that the high school will give this Friday.
I’m reading a play today and discovered a definition of a kiss: a communication tasting of flowers, a way of breathing in a little of the heart and tasting a little of the soul with edge of the lips.
Word reached me from Monroe today telling me that the board was anxious to see me and that the position there was mine if I wanted it. I’ll go see the board this week but I won’t decide until I hear from Fullerton.
Did you say you had spring fever? I have it together with lonesomeness These days make me think of the many many associations we have had together here on the campus. We have had some wonderful times together, haven’t we?
So you think you fell more deeply in love; of course I’m glad, I must have fallen too because I can think of is you. I’ve been thinking more deeply about school and plans for next year. The way I feel now, unless I get a scholarship for next year I want to teach one year and then have us both go to school. I know you’re not entirely in love with that plan but I’m confident that if I actually asked you to marry me a year from this spring that you would. I hope so
Miss Thornberg was telling me today that Miss Stratton wrote her asking for the names of someone who would teach with her next year if she should stay where she now is. Miss Thornberg thought that perhaps it would be convenient for you to teaching Pennsylvania if I went to school at New York or Haverford. How would that appeal to you?
What a lovely thought to think of what we were enjoying together last Sunday night at this time. You were in my arms dear; that place is always for you – the pleasure is for me.
Friday evening I went to Monroe in response to a telephone call from them. They offered me at first $125/mo but I finally told them that if I took the place at all I would want $1200 for nine months. I told them I would let them know the first of the week after I had heard from Fullerton. I do prefer Fullerton to Monroe by far Some of my anxiety was relieved when I heard from NY refusing me a scholarship this year – I didn’t feel badly in view of present circumstances By Tuesday when I write I will probably be able to tell you my decision regarding plans for next year. I’ll be happy to have the over with at least for the present.
What you you know! Zola wears a diamond now It is a yellow gold ring I like it but not nearly as well as I do “ours” I often think of your ring, especially of how nice it appears on your hand. How I will love you when you have the mate to it I hope I won’t come so near crying when I give that one to you. I should dislike to have anyone other than you see me cry.
Merl stopped in a bit this afternoon. He had as little to say as always and as little time to spend. He asked “is Ruth still cussing me because I’m single?” I said you were. To which he replied, “well she may cuss another year yet.” What do you think of that?
Into more school difficulties? I’m terribly sorry for all of those unfortunate things that happen. It is interesting to speculate as to how we will manage since you dislike children. I do like children though I’m not crazy over the thoughts of rearing them. I know we won’t think about that matter very seriously anyway until we are through school. I’m of the opinion that after a few years of married life, the desire for children of our own will become quite strong. I think that because of the experience of others and because they tell me that love isn’t complete until two bond over a little child of their own.
Next weekend I plan to go to York to the Young Mens training conference. I am scheduled to speak Saturday morning. I’m afraid if my speaking engagements increase proportionally as they have in the pasts few years that you won’t have a husband very much of the time.
I am fearful that if I wait to hear from Fullerton next week that someone else will have been elected at Monroe. I think I shall call Monroe in the morning and inform them that I will teach there next year Will you mind? I’ll be forty miles closer to you than I am now so I’m anticipating seeing you quite often.
I’m glad you told me what you did regarding what you wanted to do. I have been unhappy at times because I haven’t known what you had hopes of doing in the future. I have felt that you were sacrificing all dreams and plans for yourself just because I loved you and you felt obligated to marry me. You know I don’t want you to feel that way. Why would it not be possible for both of us to realize our dreams? I am inclined to think that our married life will not be abundantly happy unless we do those things. I have had no other hope than whenI do go to school, and if you go with me, that you shall take training in that field that you love. I could never be happy to feel that your marriage to me meant denial to yourself of what your heart loves. If you had the obligation of deciding when you would get married, what plans would you make?
I umpired a baseball game between district 8 and Marion school. It was great sport, the the weather was rather disagreeable. Marion school won 41-5. Can you imagine such a game? It was fun to be out there with the boys.
Tonight we presented our share of the program presented by the Central Collegiate Club, a new organization formed to provide entertainment and amusement. It was all comedy – but heaps of fun. If you could have seen our “outfit” you wouldn’t have accused me of being too serious. I do believe I’m more jolly than I “uster” be. Aren’t you glad?
Your letter was heart breaking. I’m more than sorry if mine of last Sunday caused you grief as great as has been mine. I’ve lied another day like those of last spring. All those old problems return such as: consciousness of my weakness and lack of control, whether or not you are happily in love with me, and whether or not our marriage will be happy. I feel partly responsible for your dislike of teaching. What would I give to have it different! I’m ashamed of myself for doing what you dislike, its my fault and punishment. That’s what makes life seem so cruel just now From the way I’ve acted, though I have loved you dearly, I couldn’t blame you for casting me out of your life You no doubt would be the happier.
Tomorrow about eight of us are going to York to the YM Conference. I’m not anxious about it now but I must go since I have to speak. I feel like a hypocrite speaking to a group of college men on the subject “what kind of men must we be to make the essential contribution of Jesus to our school” when I have failed so completely as a lover and sweetheart.
Sometimes I feel that the big reason why we have difficulties and aren’t as happy as we might be is because of our difference in religious habits and thoughts I never feel like talking about such to you though I often want to I know you have told me you can’t see my way and this year I have earnestly tried to see your way but I find it as impossible as you do.
Your last letters have made me cry through and through I thought of little else than of you. As I try to understand you and your circumstances I have an indescribable feeling. Oh the sorrow when I experience such feelings as when I must face the uncertainty of the true unity of your love with mine. Just now if I could kiss you and hear you say you loved me I would be the happiest man in the world. You haven’t told me that for it seems a long time. I know it may seem foolish for me to feel badly but I like to have it all confirmed often. I could hardly wait to get your letter this afternoon. I got so nervous wondering what you would say.
I’ve been taking invoice of my debts. Much to my dislike I find that graduation will find me about $500 in debt. It seems this year that ther were so many things that demand money that I have to borrow more and more. I’ll be happy as long as my credit is good Now I venture to dream of saving at least enough next year to get married next spring. I know I can if you will only trust me.
I am confident that the only one that can help you with your problems is God. Don’t think I am preaching – I merely tell you what I experience and suggest that I’m confident in God’s power. It is hard for me to imagine our Father overlooking our needs Please accept His help.
Tomorrow I’m scheduled to speak to the high school at Hordeville in Guy Solt’s place. I feel very unworthy to attempt filling his shoes but I have agreed to try. I’m to speak in the interest of education adn NCC. I get a great joy out of speaking especially on behalf of NCC.
I like to think that there are only five more weeks of school for you and only seven for us. Do you recall all the events of the closing weeks of school, such as sneak day, plays, picnics, etc, etc!!
I feel so tired, my head aches, and my throat is sore. I think my feelings are the result of the worry of deciding what to do next year, of making ends meet, and of thinking of you and our matters. All of these problems have come when Ive had so much work to do. Perhaps I feel somewhat as you often do. If so, I certainly am sorry for you.
Your letter today helped me a little. You ask why I have felt as I have and I can’t state definitely the reason. I always feel badly when your work seems to get the better of you. Yes you have shown your love toward me i a wonderful way – too wonderful almost. You mistake me when you think that I now want you to give me the only thing that you haven’t. I’m more than thankful that you have acted as you have in that respect. In my sane mind I don’t want you to give in. Since I must wait several more years for you I’m determined that I’m going to make myself worthy to be a husband.
Since you feel as you do about marrying, you can rest assured that I shall not press the matter. I’m afraid I’ve done that too far now at the expense of your free will.
What a disappointment was mine today when Supt. Bitner called me and informed me of my election at Fullerton. My? I hate to turn that position down but such I must do.. I would prefer Fullerton not because of the more wages I would receive but because of the better school and then I would get to coach debating. I’m already planning the things I will do at Monroe. It will be great sport to teach history (not so much to teach English) and coach basketball. I want to start a Hi Y.
This afternoon the debate squad had our picture taken. I’ll be sending you some pictures soon. Guy Solt asked Miss Thornburg to take a snapshot of me that Guy wants to have prints made so that he and president can send them to Friends i the East. He thiks that if those people can see some of NCC’s products and know something of them that they might be more interested in our college. I very humbly consent to such knowing myself as I do. I love NCC so much that anything I might do is insufficient.
Grades are out again and much to my surprise my average has raise. I thought debate and other things would lower them but they are decent: Drama 95, History of Friends 96, HS, Methods 93, Child Psyc 94, US Hist 94, and German II 94.
Yesterday morning (4 am) found me feeling well enough to sneak. My! Did we have fun? I should say. I don’t know when I have ever had as good a time – that is of foolishness. We were in Hastings for breakfast. At the beautiful park then we played and ate After “dog piling”, swinging, playing ball and what not we observed Ingleside – no they didn’t keep any of us. We all stood the test. We visited a museum and saw many wonderful sights. We came to Grand Island for supper and then saw “Broadway Melody” at the Capital. We got back about 11:30.
You children have a right to think your dad a good one, also your mother. In fact I’m quite in love with your whole family – did you know that? I know they must be very happy boys with the new car. However, I’ll bet your dad and mother are happier than the boys I’m sure I would be.
It was certainly lovely to get your letter today – it seemed more like my sweetheart. We’re certainly two bundles of complexities, aren’t we?
Nothing has been more welcome than what you wrote concerning your work. I’m so glad for your sake as well as for the pupils. I wonder if it isn’t nearly always true that when things dont seem to go rightly the big reason is within ourselves. I have had the feeling that you were achieving more than you thought.
Another invitation Ruth. George invited you and me to be present at his wedding at about 1 o’clock on commencement day. Dear old George is so enthused he can scarcely contain himself. He got a long distance call from Zola calling to say she had bought her wedding clothes I thought I’d have to get someone to help me hold George he was so excited. Only a select few of their friends will be at the wedding. Will you accept the invitation? If so, we’ll have a pretty well filled day, don’t you think? Two weddings, the festival, and commencement.
I had a call from Arcadia yesterday offering me a choice of two positions in their high school. Bother pay more than what I shall get. The reason I feel I must remain at Monroe is that I had the option of taking a chance on getting another school or of losing out all together. I didn’t take the chance, I lost – therefore, I don’t feel like breaking the contract. Fullerton would have paid me $50 more – yet I think there will be enough difference in living expenses in the two towns to make the difference. Then too, atMonroe I’m only 8 mi from home and only about 110 mi from you.
I got extravagant and bought me some new clothes – a suit, shoes, and several other articles. I haven’t worn my suit yet. I bought it at Hastings the other day. Now don’t you wish you could see me all dressed up? Maybe not – anyway I like to have new things.
The manager at Skaggs urges me to keep on working in the system. He says that I ought to be able to work up very readily into a good position. If I don’t do student work this summer I believe I will attempt securing a job in one of the stores, but to work for long at such a position does not appeal to me.
The time passes hurriedly and everyone here is counting the days until school is over. However all are rather dreading the time when they will have to part. Folks are asking when you will be here. We’re expecting a host of students to return this spring as soon as their schools are out.
We had a good tie lasts night at the athletic benefit program. The play “The Moue Trap” was given. Marion Emry’s tumblers were on the program. My,I marvel at the ability of those little children to perform such feats. The athletic association took in about $39.00.
I certainly have spent a lot of money this year. When I realized I wasn’t going to get married I didn’t care so much about going easy with finances. Consequently I’v bought a number of things and have done many things that have taken money. I have spent thus far this year over five hundred dollars – the most I’ve ever spent in one year at school. I intend to pay off over two hundred of my debt this summer. Judging from my experience this year and yours too I may not save anything next year. I do hope though I can save enough to make a further start in school.
It stands decided now that I won’t see you at Quarterly Meeting. I happened to win first in the extempo contest and will need to go to Omaha on May 4th to attend the state contest. I’m at a loss to know just where to begin in my preparation for the state contest on the subject “The practical aspects of the spoken word”. I suppose this subject permits discussion on the radio, oratory, ministry, salesmanship, etc. Imagine me tackling such a job! Two prizes were given tonight, the first of three dollars and the second of two.
Edith got homesick so she went home on the train yesterday and came back today. She said Leonard was certainly happy over the ball glove I sent him. I know I have had more fun out of giving him that than he ever will have out of using it.
The incident I related to you recently has had rather a tragic ending. I learned today that Zola told George that Ruth’s work of teaching coupled with other things had gotten the better of her. I sincerely hope that my refusal to pay any attention to her hasn’t increased her burdens sufficiently to cause her to go insane. If I have that effect on girls, I marvel at your strength.
I hope you have the nicest birthday ever. You have made me more of a man than you will ever know, Ruth – I speak of speak of recent things you have enabled me to do with myself. I’ll close now with the hope that your school is going perfectly and that you have a happy, happy, birthday.
What do you know! When I learned about the Arcadia positions I told Horace Mott of them and urged him to make an application. He postponed it until I happened to think that Barney might also have a chance to get in there so I told Barney on Thursday morning and by five o’clock that evening both he and Horace had signed their contracts and rented a room together. They were certainly a happy pair. Needless to say, so was I.
This week I must make all the preparation I can on the subject of the state extempo contest. I hardly know where to begin on such a subject but it must be done. I’ve also got the job of coaching track to the girls. They are training for a meet to e held in Lincoln soon. Many boys no doubt envy me this job. Miss Thornberg knows nothing about track so I’ve been delegated the task.
George told me that Ruth Crain would have to stay in the hospital for a year He said that her difficulty stated from an internal goiter. Perhaps you’ve guessed by not why she happened to be interested in me. Not so flattering after all, is it? Truly though, I feel very sorry for her.
I’ve had the most fun the past two days. because Mrs. carrell was ill yesterday and could not fulfill an engagement to speak at the literary program of the woa’s club, she asked Mary Heston and me to take her place. It was a fashionable group of women and I was the lone male. However, I didn’t feel the least bit out of place but enjoyed the women greatly. The ladies were greatly please with our contributions and I felt very happy to have been permitted to speak.
then today I had more fun. I told you I had been asked to coach the girls in track. Well, I did. I’ve gotten them all hobbling about now they are so stiff. For that I’ sorry but such results are inevitable. I’m going to have a real track team by May 11 when they shall attend the meet at Lincoln.
I would love to have you go to Omaha but, of course, I mustn’t tempt you unduly. We will leave here Friday; the contest will be held Saturday afternoon and evening. We’ll return on Sunday.
Another tragedy – one that has cut deep into the lives of all here at NCC and in the community. Irving Dickerson, who graduated from Central City High School last year and now as a freshman in college was working at the sand pit yesterday andwas drowned. He was working witha crew that was pumping sand. For several hours they dragged the pit for his body and found it finally. I knew Irving very well and it doesn’t seem possible that his life could be snatched so quickly away. His funeral will be held Thursday. School is being dismissed so all can attend.
No, I’ve never been out with Ruth Crain, nor have I given her occasion to feel that I cared for her. From other things that I’ve heard recently I suppose I was partly the cause of her break down yet I conscientiously must plead innocence.
I have literally devoured you recent letters – they are wonderful. The world is always rosy when you are happy and we are not in conflict.
5/4/29 From Omaha 11:30 p.m.
A letter must suffice to break the news that Central won first place in the extempo contest here today. I tried to send you a telegram but discovered that the offices at both Allen andWaterbury would not be open until Monday. The subject that it fell my lot to speak on was “how debating helps the prospective preacher”. As a reward I’m now looking at a lovely large silver loving cup. I’m going to leave it at the college.
We did have a splendid trip and visit in the city. Enroute to and from Omaha I stopped at home for a few minutes. What a joy to be home! the folks were happy about my victoryas one might naturally expect.
Edith has excellent prospects of securing a school just eight miles from home. With both of us that near home next year we should have some good times. The folks appreciate our nearness perhaps ore than any others.
What do you know? Mother told me that Lawrence and Rose are expecting a little one. Won’t it be fun to be “Uncle John and Aunt Ruth”? Such are the rewards of adulthood, I suppose.
I’m terribly sorry that you are feeling ill – so much worse when you have much work to do. I hope my letter makes you feel just a little better. I feel mighty proud of you because of the good work that you have done this year. I can’t award you a cup but I can with kisses.
I’m working seriously on our Fullerton Boy’s Camp. My! I never knew there was so much involved in promoting such an affair. I’m going to push it with heart and soul through until our end is achieved.
I wish I knew what am going to do this summer for certain. I feel almost sure that I will solicit students but I would like to have all question removed.
Your suggestion of a girl’s camp was of great interestto me now that my attention is quite definitely on boys campl When you come to see me perhaps we can talk of it further. I’ll be thinking about it.
I’m bery sorry that you feel dissatisfied so much of the time. I remember that Ralph and Merl feel the same way a great deal. Perhaps heredity or home traiing or other environmental influences are responsible. If they should be that doesn[t necessariy mean that you must continue to be dissatisfied. I’m thinkful that under normal conditions I feel quite satisfied – feel that the whoe world is mine – to make better.
I think you would enjoy any of your summer options. I think you would greatly enjoy giving music lessions again. Now dont you think I could wisely urge you to give time to the cooking club? I hope my wife will be a good cook or become one at least. You know my weakness at the table.
More honor! Goodness I hardly can keep my equilibrium. The
cahmber of commerce have invited Leland nd me to dinner tomorrow as their special guests because of our recent achievements. I’m almostgettingtired ofbeingcongratulated. I want you to just kiss me – that will be the best of all. Mr. Watsoannounce that Estellene had won first honors in scholastic achievements and I second. Estelline’s grad averaged was 94-2/5 and mine was 92-19/100. It looks like I will be exempt from my examinations.
I’ve just returned from a committee meeting where we made plans for the alumni banquet. Miss Benton, may I have the honor and pleasure of entertaining you at the alumni banquet on June 4? R.S.V.P.
Before I go to the movie with Kenneth and Barney I’ll take time to drop you a line. We’re going to see a war picture “Behind the German Lines”.
I can’t tell you how happy I am to get your letters. When one gets accustomed to being away from their heart’s desire it isn’t so terrible as we often think. I think this year has been very profitabe for us. I’m sure it has to me. I’ve never been happier in my life than I have been during the past two months since my despondency. I feel conqueor of myself and I intend to be that way always.
No, I dont see you playing the role you suggest nor a I going to be dumb enough to benture a suggestion of what I thinkis wrongwith you. In fact, I’m not sure there is anything wrong with you. You are just going through a perplexing period I suppose. How do you suppose we would feel now had our once thought of plan to be married this spring materialized? Anyway, I’m glad we’re not going to be. I think as you do that we’re not ready for it. As far as I’m concerned the matter rests with you. It would be too awfulto have to pine away the hours and days begging you to marry me. We’ll be marrried when ever you want to.
A new experience awaits me tomorrow when I shall teach at the high school. One of the teachers is ill so I’ve been asked to function for her. Imagine me wielding the “big stick”! My track girls didn’t go to their meet because of the heavy rain so I’ll have to coach them a week more. I don’t mind, in fact I believe I would rather coach girls than oys. Not for sentimental reasons, understand, but because they are always so eager to learn and so obedient. I’ve had a lot of fun with them. Some of their bare knees and legs don’t bother me in the least.
This news will probably shock you. The funeral of Dorothy Richards Koon is to be held Monday. Mr. Richards stopped by the store and said that she died Saturday. She has always had a weak heart. She gae irth to a child about four hours before she died. The doctors state that the child birth was normal and not the immediate couse of her death but rather blood clotted herweak heart. Imagie the grief andsorrowof her husband. He can be happy though that she has left him a baby to love.
More sad news. Last night an aunt of Leone Drinkall and a former student at NCA poured kerosene in her stove and caused a terrible explosion. She waf blown out of the house and harmed so severely that she dided last night. Her four children and husband were also burned but they will live. President Carrell will conduct the funeral tomorrow.
One busy man have I been during the past two days and the next few do not promise much change. I was at the high school on Monday morning where I taught two classes in world history and dept one study hall period. I had a good time, had no difficuties and concluded that I think I shall enjoy teaching. Both Ted and I are going to teach there tomorrow. Last night we went to
silver Creek ad presented our glee club program. This afternoon I umpired a ball game and also coached y girls. This evening, after fixing a tire, I’ve prepared a form letter to be sent to parents regarding the boy’s camp and an article for the local paper on Good Will Day.
Barney and I while reading the Allen News today noticed that Miss Benton and her pupils went on a picnic last Friday. Don’t you feel proud to have your name in the paper?
I hated to write the letter in which I told you of Dorothy’s death because I knew how it would affect you. Yes, no doubt Dorothy’s husband thinks that too dear a price was paid. It frightens me too to think about it. Because of the feelings this incident causes in me I feel more that it is not just for a nam to insist that his wife have children. You know that children will come to us only when you keenly desire them. Then I think I should worry myself sick until it was over.
I had a good time at the high school teaching English. Of course I learned many things. I think it is probably harder to be a substitute teacher than it would be to be a regular one. During my spare time I am working on my boy’s camp Others hae such little interest in it that I must just about do the whole thing.
I’m in the bookstore now but I can’t wait until tonight to write to you. I want to ask for another date. Our glee clubs are presenting their program next Tuesday and I want you to hear our program.
Another announcement that will interest you. I’m so happy about it. Governor Weaver will deliver our commencement address. Isn’t that good? On next Friday the college is having special senior recognition day. Won’t we have a lot to do?
You’re no doubt breathing easy now that your school is out. I feel a sense of relief too.
The bell has just rung so I must scamper and study my psychology. Tonight I am going with the gang to a Y.M. retreat to be held at Fullerton. Tomorrow I’ll be in the store; Sunday I’m going to Alda in the interest of our camp.
It is a very weary boy that pens this letter. I didn’t get through work last night until after one o’clock and then home I ran out of gas. The clock registered two fifteen when I crawled to unconsciousness. Today I went to Alda. Lots of traveling and visiting with dear friends about our camp and college.
If you don’t come until Friday you will have time to recover from the strain of these last few weeks. I had my heart set on you comng earlier – but then you know best when you should come.
From Dad’s diary:
5/23/29 – YM today; seniors spoke on what the association has meant to them during their course. This association has meant more to many of us than any other i school. To me it has meant like, knowledge, contacts, and education. To it I am deeply indebted. Mr. & Mrs. Carrell entertained senior class at Grand Island at Akropolis restaurant. Our hearts beat loudly as we partake of a fellowship that shall never be again.
5/24/29 – special senior recognition day. Wore caps & gowns to chapel. Ruth arrived in mid afternoon. Of course all else ceases. She presented me with a beautiful wrist watch for graduation. She and I attended the Y.M. & Y.W. banquet. We had a time of great rejoicing.
5/25/29 – worked at Skagg’s . Had dinner at Dr. Hull’s which is always a pleasure. Ruth had lunch with me this evening Worked until 12:30.
5/26/29 – memorial service at the Methodist Church. Ruth and I enjoyed the afternoon together. Attended Friends Church in the evening.
5/27/29 – studied drama with Ruth. Guy Solt presented student campaign in chapel. Attended athletic benefit program in the evening. Ruth and I had lunch together.
5/28/29 – these last days of school are conducive to lethargy. It is hard to push to the end. Pres. Carrell spoke at our last chapel. It was difficult to realize that this was the last of six years of daily chapels.
5/29/29 – Ruth and I enjoy our fellowship greatly. We learned that Ralph has the measles.
5/30/29 – 5/31/29 These days filled with fellowship with Ruth and college friends
6/1/29 – rain prevented college picnic; Ruth and I attended a movie in the evening
6/2/29 – drove with Mr. Watson to St. Paul where Mr. Watson spoke at the Presbyterian church. After returning to Central Ruth, Kenneth, Lois, Guy Puckett and I enjoyed dinner at the Marsh home. Charles O. Whitely gave our baccalaureate address.
6/3/29 – attended the wedding of George and Zola. It was an honor to be the cardinal at the June festivl Many friends have returned for commencement activities. Gov. Weaver gave address. The folks were present. I received my A.B. degree. Ruth and I assisted in the marriage of Ivan & Fillis They left at once for Grand Island.
6/4/29 – attended college alumni breakfast. Ruth and I attended old students banquet together. It is lovely to have her with me. Our love is great. I realize more and more how much she means to me. All is well when she is well. I could have made no better choice of a life mate. We greatly enjoy our evenings together.
6/5/29 – Ruthie, sweetheart, left for home. How I regret having her go! Work begins on our boy camp at Fullerton.
6/6/29 from Fullerton NE
We have done a great deal of climbing and hiking. The boys when turned loose are like a pack of fox hounds. Already a swimming hole has been located. I was the oly older person her until this noon when Marion returned. Merl will be over tomorrow for a short stay. The only unfortunate thing is that it has rained all day The boys hvae gotten their clothes wet and are hying around in blankets to keep warm. One or two more misfortnes: several of the boys have wounded themselves and like a good mother I hav had to care for them. William Watson ran a fish hook in his finger this morning so far that I took him to the doctor to have it taken out. Here Marion and I sit in our tent writing as the rain patters on the canvas. The rain occasionally drips through.
After you left I investigated about cars and found a Chevrolet that I almost bought but after talking to Guy Solt I decided to keep my old “lizzy” for this summer. I wanted the other so badly, but I believe it is the wisest thing With a small expense I can put my old Ford on the road and buy another one this fall or next spring when I have the money.
6/8/29 from Fullerton
Boys are lying all around me. They have been having the time of their lives. What they can’t think of – one of them is hanging by his toes from a rafter. Yesterday I went to Central to take care of some affairs. While there I stopped at Moore’s garage to learn the ailment of my Ford. Before I left I effected a “swap”. I didn’t get as good a car as I suggested I might. I only paid $25 besides my old car. The Ford I now have looks one hundred percent better than the old one and runs quite well. I figure the bargain a good one.
I’m so sorry, I lost my graduation pin. How? I don’t know. The last I saw of it was at supper last night. The boys have searched the camp over and over but with no success. Now I’m awfully sorry that I didn’t give it to you. You are always so careful with valuables.
Back to the old room at Central again and writing to my dear girl. I’m glad commencement, camp and yearly meeting are over, now I can hope for more regularity in my activites. We got home about five. The boys had the time of their lives. Marion and I were called on to make a report of the camp at meeting which we gladly did.
It was a pleasant surprise to see Ralph tonight He is the same old pal. I hope I get to have a real old fashioned chat with him before he goes home. I’ll send this letter with him.
Marion and I had quite a personal talk this evening. He and Miss Thornberg are deeply in love and from what he said they are making plans. Tomorrow I shall work on my car and start making plans for the campaign this summer. I do so much desire a good sized student body for dear old NCC.
I enjoy thinking of you with your pupils. You enjoy working with little folks, don’t you? Oh yes I know at times you detest them but nevertheless when ever you have an opportunity to be of service you usually choose to work with youngsters
What have I been doing? Well – working on my Ford mostly. Harlan and I havit in tip-top shape ow and I have solicited one student. Tomorrow I am going to Alda and from there to North Loupe and Scotia. I expect to be back next Friday. Harlan has made things worse for me and he apologized yet he continued. He said that he and his wife used to imagine how lovely companionship would be but he said they found it to be many times better than they had imagined. If that will be true in our case indeed we can look forward to almost eternal bliss, don’t you think?
6/13/29 from North Loupe
I’m so glad that we are lost at sea together. You write of my ideals for a home – you are responsible for them. Your own home, you yourself, such friends as Carrells and Marshes, and experiences in the boarding club have done much to beautify our future. I hope we never get into a lethargic state regarding home affairs.
Yes, I want to hear what new suggestion you have regarding possible plans for our wedding. I have considerable time to ponder such things as I’ traveling about.
Yesterday I worked in Alda having my meals at Foxworthies and staying with them last night. Today I came to North Loupe and have made my headquarters with the Hawkes on the farm. We had a picnic lunch together this evening and a little fishing party. Several fish were caught – I caught one. Mrs. Hawkes was the champion.
6/17/29 from Central City
I hardly know what to think about our proposal except the plan that we will be married. Anything plans seem entirely satisfactory. Isn’t it just like you and me to be worrying about such things a year in advance?
I got back from North Loupe Friday evening. Saturday Harlan and I overhauled my Ford again but it took so long to get it reassembled I didn’t get to go home. I went today for about four hours. My! It certainly seems good to be there again. The kiddies are such fun. Oh yes, Katherine kissed me for you – it was certainly sweet but you would have kissed my lips while she kissed my cheek. The folks are deeply in love with you – aren’t we glad?
It’s comfortable to sit here in the parlor and write while the radio renders most beautiful music. Just now the Russian Cathedral Choir is singing. It is magnificent.
This next week I am going to work northeast of Central in the towns of Normal, Genoa, Fullerton, Edwards and Belgrade. I’ll have a big job to finish these towns, don’t you think? I’m hoping to stop by Central sometime during the week to get your letters.
6/18/29 from Genoa
My work is not without its storms; I meet so many who are indifferent or who are desperately poor, or who are having all sorts of difficulties and problems an as I face these conditions I long for you, just to assure me of happiness midst such a tumultuous world. I always see our world so much happier than that of large masses and pit those who are unfortunate.
I’ve been working in Normal, Platte Center and Genoa since Sunday with only a fair degree of success You would enjoy some parts of my work, but other phases of it you wouldn’t enjoy For instance you would like to meet people like Hoars’ and Farmers’, simple though splendid folk. But when you would happen on some old sour, shriveled up soul who can’t breathe without swearing life wouldn’t be so sweet. I met an old pollander today who disgusted me. He said “It won’t do you no good, I’m not interested. These schools are all damn foolishness – none of them are worth a d___”. I don’t argue, surprising as that seems, but move on. I met a man this evening who was interesting. He’s having difficulty with his boy who seems to him to be “wild” (I think he’s right too). The man almost cried when he was telling me some things He spoke most highly of Central but a little later on he surprised me by saying a student from Genoa had attended Central and said that the moral conditions in the school were rotten. Imagine the fire spring within me, what would you have said? I won – and left the man in a settled feeling about the school. He wants me to work personally with his boy Such are my experiences.
How repulsive are some of the homes – dirty and unkept. I always rejoice knowing that my wife will never have our home in such a mess. More and more I appreciate your standards and ideals for our home.
It was my good fortune to be able to drive to Columbus and stay all night last night. The night was interrupted though. When I drove home the north western sky was covered with heavy dark clouds At about ten-thirty Dad received word to go to Albion that some of his track was washed out. He has been there since and now I am hedged in by water. I was supposed to go to St. Edwards tomorrow but the town is under water and the road is washed out. The road to Fullerton is also washed out. I understand that three persons were drown at Albion in the flood that followed a seven inch rain.
I’ve engaged a room for next year with a man who owns the garage in Monroe The place is just opposite the garage. Two elderly persons are the only other inmates an the place is quite large so I think I shall like it. I will need to pay $8/week for board and room. That is’t as bad as it might be, is it? While in Monroe I had a nice visit with my superintendent and I think we will get on splendidly. I understand that discipline in the school has been a problem for the past two years but I think it will improve next year. I’m going to be “hard boiled” to begin with. Esthellene says she is too – so kids beware!
The hotel is full tonight. Due to the floods people who are traveling north or west are almost forced to stay here. People are being continually turned away for want of rooms.
Back home again. My plans to be away all week were somewhat thwarted byt the floods and insufficient finances. I’m replenished now with money at least, so I shall return to the battle field early in the morning. Last night it rained and hailed in Belgrade where I was. In Fullerton hail stones fell that were as large as baseballs. Thus far I’ve been fortunate not to get caught on the road in such storms.
I don’t know now if I’ll be able to go to the conference or not. Both President and Guy Solt are on the program; that means that no one save me will be left to carry on the work. It may happen that our work at the time will permit us all to be away – that is my hope.
After working the town of Fullerton my spirits aren’t very high. High school students here sort of carry the attitude that it would be a condescension to go to a college in Central City. Anyway, I don’t care much about such students.
Your letters are always interesting to me whether they contain thrilling experiences or not. Of course I love to read about all you do, particularly those things you enjoy. If I didn’t learn now what a things you enjoy maybe I never would learn, wouldn’t that be sad? I’ll try never to cease learning.
What do I think of your little dream of our being married in your church? I’m going to surprise you and tell you that it rather appeals to me. Its so different that no one but you would think of it. The one thing that I would dislike, however, is having too many friends there. If only our folks and three or four special friends were there I wouldn’t mind, but I wouldn’t want as many as were at Zola’s wedding. Could President manage to be there – or could I manage to get him there? We’ll think more of the plan. It will be much better if we can talk about it.
I’ve decided that I can probably go to the Young Friend’s Conference ut I haven’t decided what to do about coming up to the farm around the fourth of July. If not then, I’ll see you at the conference although we know from past experience how hard it is to attend to the conference when we’v been separated for several weeks.
This evening after meeting Mrs. Haworth and I had a interesting chat!! She and her husband took work in the New York Bible Seminary last year. Our conversation was interrupted but I’m gong to call on them soon and learn more of schools in New York, expenses, opportunities, etc. I’m determined, you see, to haul you away to school. You don’t mind so greatly do you if you can study too and have so many new experiences with me?
I’m so glad your mother is so patient in teaching you for your married life. Give her my thanks – don’t you think they are in order?
6/25/29 Wolback, NE
Yesterday I had to work the largest portion of the day on my car. After I finished I made some calls and got some good prospects.I stopped at Chushman’s for the first time since I left last summer. Of course I couldn’t get away. Nothing would do but that I should stay for supper and the night. Merl is working there now so we had a real old time reunion. I certainly enjoyed such an evening. When I was a boy the folks used to go visiting like that but it isn’t often that I have such a privilege any more.
Oh say, you wouldn’t have known what to think had you seen me this afternoon. I called on a beautiful high school graduate. Well, while talking to her in stormed another graduate equally nice looking and charming. They are both going somewhere to school together so they had lots of questions. You ought to be glad that I have to have dignity sometimes – in fact almost always – in my present work. I behaed well amid such temptation. Wouldn’t Ralph enjoy such an occasion? It isn’t often one meets charming girls in my work. So often they are homely, poor, uncultured, or possess some other malady. You need not worry. I haven’t found any yet that begins to equal mmy sweetheart.
6/27/29 Scotia, NE
I’ve been combing the hills and I’ve almost reached final conclusions abbout these pesky mounds of earth. Yesterday I left Wolback at about 8:00 in search of a boy. It was after 10:00 when I found him only seven miles in the jungles. The worse was yet to come. I left him in search of a girl whom he said lived only four miles from him. Iwas just about 11:30 when I found her. I sure said “darn”. When I finally returned to Wolback I had traveled some thirty-five miles in search of those two and had broken a front spring for good measure. Such are my experiences.
Today I worked hard to finish in time to attend a rural community church picnic held in the community where Mr. Reynolds preaches. While there I saw several college propects and their parents. You would have laughed to see me lecturing to different ones while others played ball or ate ice cream. Everyone looked of course and wondered what sort o propaganda I was peddling. Regardless of what they thought, two students are coming to Central to school and possibly a couple more. Not a bad picnic for me, do you think?
What have I missed this week while on the road? Your letters. I know you must think “why should I write three times if he isn’t going to get them until the end of the week”. Of course, you can do as you like about it but I’m always glad to get several. When you write often your letters have a freshness that I enjoy and also I can know of your varied moods and experiences.
Tonight I am out at Johannsen’s again. I’m writing while Leland and his dad are doing the chores and his sister is getting supper. The mother died nine years ago When I’m in a home where there is no mother I think of an old motto we boys used to have on the wall of our room “What is a Home Without a Mother?” I can’t help but imagine how I would feel without you – I mean if you were gone forever. Oh nothing in life could b more tragic! I don’t like to think of it and I won’t anymore.
Leland’s little brother just looked at my watch and said “oh boy”. I am awfully glad you gave me my watch. I like it more each day. I don’t see how I could get along now without it. But as you say, I’m more thankful for the love which prompted the giving.
Just a quick note this morning since I didn’t have time to write last night. I preached two sermons yesterday and then had to drive home from Alda last night. Now I’m supposed to be at Guy Solt’s place but had to write to tell you I’m coming to visit you either Thursday evening or Friday afternoon!
7/1/29 St. Paul, NE
Last week was exceedingly fruitful for me. I lined up quite definitely two boys at Cedar Rapids, one girl at Palmer, two folk at Scotia, and two boy at Spaulding. A few more weeks like that and NCC will have to enlarge her quarters.
I’m going to scout St. Paul, Danneburg, Elba and Cotesfield before Wednesday night then to Columbus for the fourth. Friday morning I’ll do some work in Madison ad then in the afternoon I’m heading for Benton’s. That schedule is like trying to find the end of the rainbow. I’ll find better than gold at the then of the week. I want to go to Sioux City Saturday if you haven’t made other plans but I’m not coming north to go shopping but to be with you.
7/8/29 Arcadia, NE
Its terrible to have to be away from you after having such a lovely time with you. After you read George’s letter, which I am enclosing, you will wonder, as have I, how it will be possible to love more after marriage. George should know though, don’t you think?
You and your mother will no doubt say, “I warned you not to start home because of the approaching storm”. It started raining when I was approaching Wakefield and then it poured – and right through the top of my car too! I went on only to find myself in the ditch about two miles laters. Curses on the hills! A big hearted farmer pulled me out and I went on. It stopped raining by the time I got out of the ditch, but oh! the roads! After parading through such mud and in view of the little sleep on the previous night I found it necessary to take stimulants such as hamburger, peanuts, coffee, etc. to keep me awake. When I got to Norfolk I was so desperately sleepy that I couldn’t drive straight A car pulled up beside me and a policeman told me to stop and said, “are you stewed?”. I assured him I was not. He said that I was driving all over the road. Fortunately he believed me. I was quite awake by that time as you might guess. I stayed overnight in Norfolk. More trouble though, the next morning one of my tires gave way and I had to buy a new one.
When I stopped at home I was surprise to see Dad had bought a new Pontiac. It sure is a dandy!
7/10/29 Sargent, NE
It begins t appear that I will not get to the conference. Its a good thing I got to see you last week because I don’t know when we will see each other again, probably not until after school starts. Let me see – if I don’t come until then we will have been apart about seven or eight weeks. Can we stand it?
My work took longer than anticipated. Sargent had a graduating class of about 35 and they were certainly scattered! By the time I finish I had better head back to Central rather than trying to get to Young’s Park. I’ll have a quite Sunday which I greatly enjoy and don’t get very often. I always think how lovely it will be for us to spend our Sunday afternoons together quietly in our home. If I become a minister though I’ll have my Sunday duties but I would hope to reserve my afternoons for other things than work or visiting.
That suggests the old vocational problem again, doesn’t it? My last word was that I would not be a preacher but somehow I can’t get away from the call of that work. I’ve tried and tried hard, but more and more the work pulls me toward it. Maybe a year or two of teaching will clarify my mind and I’ll know more what I should do. I think we could be happy since you could have many opportunities to express your musical abilities. We might even be fortunate enough to have a pipe organ in our church (not very likely in NE in meeting, however). So much for that because I know such thoughts on’t make you abundantly happy. I’m still puzzling.
You would have laughed with me had you seen the pet crow I saw yesterday. He had been caught when a baby and had had his wings cropped. He would squawk and flutter about and with such expression that he almost talked. The farmer said he was quite smart. He could pull pranks, ask for food, and play. It was the first pet of that type I had ever seen.
My Ford has returned to its natural running order and runs perfectly. I’m beginning to believe that the evil spirits lurk on my way to your place and avenge themselves upon me when I come to see you Its not your fault, dear, its the spirits.
7/12/29 Eucson, NE
It would’t require much urging to move me to head for Young’s Park tonight just to
see you. It seems tragic to think you are only 70 miles away. Today it has been awfully hot and the sand hills wearisome. My room here in this “dump” hotel is like an oven. I hope it soon cools off.
At supper tonight I chanced to sit at the same table with a man who is connected with the home for children in Omaha. H tried to place babies in homes over the state. He told me about his work and truly it was most interesting I happened to mention that your mother had wanted a little girl and asked if this man was the one who brought the little girl to your home about a year ago He said he wasn’t but was interested in contacting your mother.
Lillie told me to tell you hello. That reminds me that Dad told me to kiss you for him when I left for your place last Friday. I told him I would when I had kissed you sufficiently for myself. He said I ought not to stay that long!!
Back home this time without any trouble and without being falsely accused. After I left the park I was tempted to return to you. It’s awful to love you so and have to leave you and not know when I’ll see you again. They didn’t have any rain south of Madison so I did’t go by way of Columbus, anyway the road through Monroe and Fullerton is practically all graveled now. Today I’ve done odd jobs and tomorrow I leave to work in Albion and St. Edwards – two towns I dislike to work very much.
Your letter was a treat though it was behind time a bit. I’ awfully happy about your music. When you writ so enthusiastically about I’m caught up with the desire to go with you to take your lesson. Maybe someday I can.
7/16/29 Albion, NE
The atmosphere of this hotel isn’t conducive to inspiration. There is one quite wealthy ma here who owns a finance company. He has some pet ideas which he is continually broadcasting about taxes and disparity in income and such. He has a keen mind and some logical and searching ideas They have made him rich so they can’t be so far wrong. He’s been talking all evening.
I’ve begun to visit some of my prospects a second time and thus far the prospects are still encouraging. But couples with the encouragements are the disappointments. Two of my best girl prospects have suddenly gotten married. Not “have to” cases but decisions of their own. Financial conditions are so oppressive that it is almost impossible for them to realize any ambition to dream of. Marriage offers at least a living. The economic grip in which we find ourselves is terrific.
Some tough luck was mine today. I ruined another tire. This unexpected expense will run me close this week on expense money. Maybe I won’t have enough and will go hungry I suppose. I expect to be at home over night at the end of the week so I won’t starve at least. It would be a relief to have a little surplus of money of my own and something which hasn’t been mine since I have been in school And from the appearance of things won’t be until some time in the future. It hasn’t handicapped me greatly thus far and I don’t intend that it shall in the future either.
It is splendid that you have the opportunity to go to the camp and share that experience with the girls. When we are married I want you do to everything you desire to do in fulfillment of your hope and ambitions. I expect to, why shouldn’t you.
7/18/29 St. Edwards, NE
You’re no doubt having a big time at the lake as I write this letter. That lake will always hold fnd memories for me. Do you remember when we went boating there? Many times has that experience returned to me. It was a touch of romance you see and romantic events always linger in my mind. I hope you are learning to swim. ou don’t have me to bother you so you ought to learn. I suppose I shall not have many other opportunities to swim thi summer. I wish I would – when I’m out of water for so long I get clumsy and can’t swim or dive very well.
Today I worked at Albion. I just finished a class of sixty two students there. I’m glad that job is finished because a large class is so unwieldy to handle. When I finish St. Ed I will have covered our territory for the first time and will now begin over again. Goodness, I have heaps of people to see before my school begins.
Tonight I’m staying at a private home; one of an old couple who are splendid people When it is possible to find such a place I prefer it to these small town hotels. Usually it is cooler and things are more comfortable. It’s interesting how people will open their homes to total strangers. For instance the old couple have gone to bed and here I set alone writing to you. They have entrusted their home and possessions to me. Of course I’m grateful for their confidence.
7/23/29 North Loupe, NE
Last nightI stopped at Denmans and discovered that all were away save Edna and the boys. Of course they asked me to stay for supper and the night which I gladly did. The boys were working late so Edna and I had supper alone – scandal!! Not much. We enjoyed talking over old times and friends.
I would ask you for a date if I thought there was any chance of getting it and that would be to attend the Chatauqua which is in Central this week.
In my second trips to see my prospects I’m getting skeptical now as to how many will finally attend Central. Sometimes I feel that much of my work is a waste of time, but fortunately I manage to keep up my moral.
7/25/29 Scotia, NE
I’m certainly a picture of comfort as I write. Here I sit nearly nude scribbling with my bed for a chair and my brief case for a table. You won’t mind as long as I’m cool and comfortable, will you?
I had an interesting experience today. Mrs. Boone will not be returning this year so I’ve been soliciting prospective cooks as well as students. Two persons had be recommended to President who live in North Loupe. All went well as I was Mrs. Curry on Tuesday evening. When she refused the offer I saw the other who was working in the hotel. I introduced myself and started in unaware that anyone else was listening. A widow lady who owns the hotel happened to be listening. Miss Fuller said she couldn’t take the work and we were just visiting when the owner interrupted saying this was the second time we had tried to take Miss Fuller from her. She had befriended Mis Fuller ten years ago when she was in need and now we were trying to steal her. We argued and she eventually gave up. Interesting but at the time I didn’t enjoy the woman’s interrogation. Its a good thing I can control my temper.
You would have enjoyed being with me at the band concert in NOrth Loupe last night. They have a good ban and play high class music. How I regret that I shall not be able to hear the musical specials offered at the Chautaqua this week. The leader of the Scott Company which was to appear there was the leading trumpeter in
Sweetheart, I surely hope that we never become lie Mr. and Mrs. Hawkes. Actually I can’t observe much love between them. They argue and act in a way that disappoints me. they never sleep with each other now. It is a case where passion seems to be dead and with it I’m afraid fervent love. Maybe we expect too much but I’m quite certain that I wouldn’t care to be that way.
I’ll have to get busy making preparations for housekeeping and al, I mustn’t let you do all the planning. I have thought of may things regarding our married life but not about things as practical s you have. I’m glad you are one to keep me down on earth else we might never accomplish anything definite. I’ll investigate the matter about quilts however in view of Grandmothers recent poor health I don’t know whether she could grant our request. She has done a great deal of such work though, so I’ll see. If she can’t do it Mrs Grieve could do it if it weren’t for the expense. What does she charge? Just for remembrance sake I should like to have at least one quilt done by the auxillary. As regards furniture, I hadn’t thought much about tht yet.
Mr. Haworthand Harold Meyers talked with me about school. Sometimes I feel like giving in and going to work without going on to school. Yet I know I could never be satisfied in so doing. In my work I am made so conscious of the needs of our times that I must prepare myself to meet them in some small way at least. They encouraged me to teach only one year. He said then we would have no difficulty in going to school. Somehow I feel unjust in making plans to go to school in view of what you want. I want you to be happy above all else.
Since I last wrote I have covered a great deal of territory with some good fortune. I have secured a splendid group of prospects for college. The best group in fact that I have ever had. Crops are the one determining factor now. The weather is very unpromising just now. The intense heat this past week has made crop conditions rather critical Farmers haven’t forgotten how their wonderful crops went last year and even a suggestion of such a recurrence makes them blue. My I hope we get rain soon!
I’m thinking of going to young Friends conference even though only for four days. I’m really in need of a vacation. It may not work because Guy Solt will have to be there it would necessitate my remaining at work. The thought occurs to me that if we can go to school next year we might attend the conference as we go to our school.
Last night I went to a show. It was the first I had seen since we went to Sioux City. It was entitled “The Flying Marine” and was thrilling but rather cheap. Going to Sioux City spoils me for the ordinary pictures. These seem so short and crude in contrast to the beautiful music, lighting, and settings that is seen in the city.
7/30/29 Fullerton, NE
President Carrell and I had an interesting visit about our work. He asked me how I fared in obtaining a cook last week. When I told him how unsuccessful I was he said, “try Waterbury next”. I think I shall! He is quite enthused about school prospects as am I, however, I’ve gotten over being very enthusiastic. He can’t express his appreciation enough for the work I am doing. He is more than anxious to do anything to further the work which I suggest to him.
I’m looking forward to next Sunday since the Haworth’s have invited me to their home for supper. I’m anxious to talk with him especially about school. Have you been following the development of the new Quaker school in Philadelphia? It attracts me and I have written to the the director of the enterprise, Mr. Henry Hodgkin of England. You may have noticed an article in the last “American Friend” about it. Surely it would be a great treat to live and study with such men as Hodgkin, R.M. Jone, Alexander Purdy and others. Today I have thought often about our plans and more and more I feel the urge for us to go east the year after we’re married, in other words, a year from this fall. Now I’m inclined to think it best for us to go to school even though it may mean borrowing money. I know you are not friendly to such a plan so we’ll have to think and consider.
This morning I chcked over our total number of prospects and we have no reason to feel discouraged yet. Today a boy from Bartlett drove down to see me about final arrangements. He is one on whom Guy and I worked last summer. Such things make me feel that perhaps not all of my efforts have been in vain. At the close of this week I will have covered my territory twice. From then on I shall only need to keep up contacts and meet special problems.
Yes, I see Merl quite often and as far as I can judge he is in good health. Just yesterday he finished threshing and now he has no definite work. He and Lillian are planning somewhat on going to the Young Friends Conference. They were very anxious that we go with them, and I know we would have greatly enjoyed such an excursion, wouldn’t we? We’ll have ours next summer however.
I spent most of the afternoon at the Haworth’s. We certainly enjoyed our visit. We talked about everything under the sun. They tease each other considerably too. They seem to be very much in love with each other. Now I see no reason at all why in fifty years from now they can’t give a visitor the same impression. Passion must cool but I see no reason for indifference to set in, do you?
Instead of scolding you about taking on so much work this summer I’m glad you have chosen to be active. I believe we’re more happy if we have plenty of interesting work to do than if we take life easy.
8/5/29 Comstock, NE
I’m very glad you had a chance to see “Abie’s Irish Rose” because it is a show that I have always wanted to see.
My, it is surely hot here in this ‘dump” hotel – next to the hottest place I’ve found this summer I hope I never find another place like it.
You would be surprised at some of the “practical” things I think of as regards our home. I too want ours to be a cordial place for friends and I have thought of many interesting things in that connection. Especially will it be great fun to have our college pals come to see us. I’m glad you are having the club experience, it should prove helpful on future occasions.
This ___ work of mine surely disgusts me about about this time of the season. It is filled with too many disappointments to suit m. One thing I am sure of, never again will I solicit students for NCC as the school now stands. Not because I love our college less but because this is an impossible job. Anyway, I may never get another opportunity to do the work.
8/13/29 Albion NE
I wonder if you felt like I did after you left yesterday? A strange, tragic feeling came ovr me making me almost desperate. It seemed like a part of me had all of a sudden left me. It won’t be long now though will it? Let me count – only less than 10 months.
After you left I interviewed several of the business men in twon relative to work for students. I found a wonderful spirit and attitude on the part of those men. At nearly every place I found there was some hope of placing a boy. I certainly enjoy visiting the business men. Most of them know me and talk quite at length about things of interest to the town and college.
While at Nordstett’s I couldn’t resist trying on suits. I mentioned to you that I was going to buy one soon. Well, I have one in mind now that I think I shall buy. Oh yes, I also picked out the suit I am going to buy next spring. Really I believe it is the nicest dark suit I ever saw. Its the sam make as my brown suit only its a dark blue with a faint stripe. I could hardly resist buying one just then.
8/15/29 Alda, NE
Tonight I am staying at Foxworthies again They have just returned from their mission to Canada. They have told me about their trip and showed lots of pictures. En route home they stopped at Yellowstone National Park. You know what such things suggest to my wandering mind: that we might go there next summer on our honeymoon. Oh that would be wonderful! Worth considering, don’t you think?
Yesterday I journeyed to Madison and then down homeward stopping at Monroe to see Mr. Kotas. He wasn’t at home so I visited my landlady. I told her I would move in August 28.
You would have greatly enjoyed being here this week end. The Jones’ are having a family gathering, consequently Lee and Ada, Lyle and Gladys, Vern and Dessa and others are all here. How I love to visit with these friends! Thy all seem so happy and at the same time they wish we were slaring the sae experiences as they are. Lee said this morning “you love her more every day”. I can’t imagine that in my case but I hope its possible. Yesterday Vern asked me why we didn’t get married. He said he only had sixty dollars when he married.
The drought is so discouraging. I don’t see what more I can do to bring students to the college. They are all so poor that financial assistance is all that can help them. Really I’ tempted to assist one or two of them. I would, but I realize that m income is now all called for. Someday I hope that we can help several worthy boys and girls through college. I can’t think of a finer charitable effort.
Ferguson’s have gone visiting this weekend and so Dale and I have been batching it. We’ve managed pretty well. I’ve been cook while he does most of the chores. I milked the cow last night but the cow wasn’t pleased to have me. She kicked me twice right in the stomach while I was milking. I got a little angry and sat down and finished my job. I may try it again tonight. If you hear an SOS come quick.
President and Mrs returned from Iowa last Friday. I was glad to see them again though they were gone for only a few days. I don’t see how I will get along next year to have to stay away from college friends. You’ve had you’re taste of that, my turn now.
I couldn’t imagine what you would send me done up in a package like the one tht was here for me. Surprised? Well I guess, but happy and pleased. Now we can “Kodak as we go”, can’t we? Taking pictures is a past tie that I have more or less neglected, probably more because I had no camera than anything else. Now, however, I can make our experiences last through pictures.
All day I have felt that you were wishing me a happy birthday. I’ve had one. Receipt of two love epistles and a token of a heart brim full of love were fitting to conclude this my birthday.
If you don’t case accumulating music pupils your home will become actually a conservatory. That might be permitted someday but I think your mother wouldn’t care for her home to be turned into a conservatory, do you? Maybe I wouldn’t either…we’ll see.
Remember that I wrote to you last spring saying that as far as our marrying was concerned I would leave the matter up to you and that I wouldn’t urge the matter further. You said that satisfied you but I realize I haven’t followed strictly to that police and I’m sorry, not because I don’t want to marry worse than anything else but I don’t like to force you to decide until you are ready. I trust your readiness now won’t prove to be a disillusionment under the strain of teaching duties. Nothing could hurt me much more than to have that happen.
Next Sunday my letter will, no doubt, be headed “monroe” – I’ll be glad. I’m getting very anxious to begin my work though I know full well that I’m unprepared. On Thursday of this week I shall move to Monroe, on Friday have teachers’ meeting and on Saturday attend Institute. Before I move, however, I have several campaign jobs to do. I wish they were over. Now I’m convinced that I don’t care for this job again. Next summer I want work that will enable me to be with you every night – that soliciting wouldn’t permit.
I was rather surprised to see Ruth Crain back home again. Her presence at meeting didn’t make me happy except that I am glad she is better. I didn’t meet her to speak.
I’ve been taking stock of my financial status just now when I am finishing my work with the college. I’m not so terribly bad off, and even though I am in debt I’m glad I went in debt for the things I received. For instance I don’t begrudge the debt of $40 to the YMCA for the Estes Park Conference. If I hadn’t borrowed I should have missed that great experience. This summer I have driven my car over 4,500miles for the college and over 600 miles for myself. I’ve made about $20 above car, personal, and incidental expenses by receiving four cents a mile. Considering all my earnings I have saved $207 in two and a half months with the college this summer. This will practically cover my indebtedness to the college. Then I will only need to pay about $300 out of my winter earnings. This I can do easily in four months I believe I can save at least $300this next nine months after paying all my debts. What do you think? Can we get married on $300? We’ll see, if we can’t I know my credit at the bank is good for at least $1000. I’m not afraid to invest money, even though borrowed, in things that I think are valuable and needed.It may be that I will need to work one more year before we can go to school, if so that can be done. I’m all primed to jump into some job and make things go.
Guy Puckett telegraphed for a recommendation to teach in a junior high school in California. Now won’t guy be doing something if he gets a position out there. Bless his heart, he deserves the best there is. I certainly hope I get to see him before the summer is over.
I was tempted to do something the other day but I achieved postponement. You can’t guess what it was either. When in a jewelry store – not a ring – at Cedar Rapids ast week, I was talking with the man who runs the store about several things. I have come to now him quite wel. Among other things I inspected some beautiful silverware. He made e a special price on a unique set that was guaranteed for life. I wanted to get it for you so badly but decided it best to wait awhile. I will sometime, dearest.
Congratulation sweetheart!! When I received your letter I wanted to kiss you because it made me very happy for your sake. Why should I scold? Not at all, when you love such work as you do. I’m please for your advancement and for this prest recognition of your ability. You think there must be some mistake about it but that i only your modesty. Persons who know you – and the one who loves you – can understnad why Mrs. Heizer has made you the offer she has. I’ll be anxious to hear more. Again I tell you that I don’t expect you to give up your great ambitions when we marry. You have as much right to express your personality and satisfy your heart desires as have I.
Tomorrow I’m going to pack and prepare to move on Thursday. Now that the time has come I rather hate to leave Central City. Think of it – having so may friends and contacts here and now I have to leave them to begin all over again so to speak. It hurts dear. However, I have the consolation that it isn’t hard for me to form new friendships and also I shall always feel that I can return to Central City. It’s rather fortunate that both of us are alike in this matter, isn’t it?
8/29/29 Monroe, NE
It seems now that I’ve started on the last lap since I’ve moved to Monroe. All I need to do now is work nine months and then the vacancy in my life will be filled. Oh honey, I’ll be so happy!
Today I packed bed and baggage and moved. The place I have to stay isn’t as convenient as it might be but never-the-less it is quite nice. My room is awfully small – that is my biggest objection. I have arranged to leave my car with Mr. Kotas, my superintendent.
By the time this letter arrives you will no doubt be back among the gang again. I’m very hopeful that you will like your work better this year. The time will scurry along faster for one reason and for another it puts me in a better frame of mind myself. Now you’ll need to come down and meed my “gang”. I think we will all work together nicely. There is one lamentable thing though and that is that I’m the only male in the group besides the superintendent. Then too, since I’m principal they expect me to do some things that they otherwise wouldn’t. We go acquainted at a meeting last Friday. Oh yes, I never told you about the girl who is living at this place with me – no, she isn’t living with me – far from it – you alone are to have that privilege (maybe it will be a privilege). She seems very nice. She comes from Wakefield, is average size, has long hair, is a brunette, but isn’t what one would call beautiful. we haven’t talked together yet so I can’t tell much about her.
Yesterday who should drop in but Leone Drinkall. It was good to see her. You know that she spent the summer in California did you not? Now she reports that she is “broke”. I can’t feature that . Maybe I’m too conservative, but I can’t feature a person teahing school for four years, having no one save themselves to keep and yet not saving anything. Goodness, what would be the value of living? I’ll be happy to break even for the next six or seven years as long as in that time we are laying a foundation for greater service and for our home. Well anyway, Leone says that she had a wonderful summer.
It was good to be at home once more however I’m never abundantly happy there due to the unchristian atmosphere I covet a richer life for Mother and Father not only for their own sake but also for those kiddies. So many things are said that cut to my heart, but it is almost impossible to do anything about them.
I suppose it was my fault that my first roll of films weren’t very good. Only three out of the six were satisfactory. I’m anxious to have this other roll developed to see how they will be. I’m going to get out the book of rules and check over my methods and adjustments.
We’ll only have school tomorrow morning to get the students registered and assign lessons. I will have four classes a day: one in American history at the first period, then one vacant period and one assembly period, then a course in 9th & 10th grade English. In the afternoon I have two assembly periods, an oral English class and a Wold History class. I wish I only had history to teach. It will be about a month and a half before I start coaching.
My first day of teaching is over. One of the most enjoyable days of my life. Honestly I just love it. Tomorrow I’m going to have a meeting and get baseball underway. The boys are clambering for it. Along with this work, today I was chose senior class sponsor. I can foresee a very busy but enjoyable nine months. I have never seen such an orderly and scholarly group of students than we have here. As I’m living this new life Im anxious about you. I want you to be happy too.
I can well appreciate you you feel about your gang. I’m glad you have prospect of having more “stuff” on the faculty. I can certainly understand how that group was and is so lively. ow I’m so chuck full of excess energy that I make life exciting for Miss Segia and Miss Nuremberger. Mrs. Segia says my eyes just pop with mischief.
Our superintendent came to school yesterday a proud father of a baby girl. He is a splendid fellow, so full of fun and yet the right sort of a fellow. All the teachers are very fond of him.
I don’t see how I can possibly come up to see you until after the first of October. You see the college was so hard up it couldn’t make settlement with me so now I’m broke until payday or until I can get some money from the college.
I’ll believe now what you said last year about a teacher’s life being a busy one. I’ve been on the jump every minute since I started teaching. Yet I don’t mind very much because I am doing interesting things and working under ideal conditions. Each day I like my work better. You too may detect a different tone in my letters now that I am so busy but you mustn’t think for a minute that I love you any less.
We teachers continue to marvel at our group of students. They are indeed a good group. As far as I can observe they like all of us.
You’ll laugh when I tell you of an experience that was mine today. I went to Lady’s Aid. We teachers were all invited in order that we could present ourselves for the satisfaction of feminine curiosity. Because I had baseball practice I was late in arriving . They served us a very lovely supper. After returning home Mrs. Segia gave a synopsis of the ladies discussion. It was “that you are the best looking group of teachers Monroe has ever had”.
The folks drove out tonight and brought my laundry to me. They reported that Edith likes her school well. I was glad for that report because I had been anxious about her. Chester is having a great time at starting to school. His teacher calls him
“dear” and he is so flattered. Kathryn hasn’t started to school yet due to a skin disease with which she is afflicted.
It seems strange to me to kow that college will start next Monday and I’m far away. It seems farther than it actually is. Do you have such feelings again this year? My heart is with Central though my body is here.
Lonely, dreary days such as the pst three have been produce a similar atmosphere in my heart. My new friends here often ask about you much to my comfort. Through Estellene the teachers have learned your name and character. Now they are all anxious to see “my sweetheart” as Mrs. Segia refers to you.
Mrs Segia is an elderly lady but is very happily married. Her husband does many little things to help her. She is full of fun and ideas about good things to eat. The other, Miss Nuremberger is only twenty-one. They spoke about my eyes because I’m always tormenting them. You see I have to have some outlet for my excess energy.
I can’t quite feature your not having to study after supper. My, what a change from last year and entirely different from my situation. Thus far I’ve found it necessary to work from early morning until late at night. I only have four it is all I can manage to keep these in assignments, master the lessons myself, and take care of their questions. With basketball coming on I don’t see any hope for a change either. Yet I don’t mind my situation at all. I’ve always had to work hard o I’m happiest when I’m busy.
I have found some time for leisure reading, however. Just now I’m reading “A Lantern In Her Hand” by Bess Streetes Aldrich. It is a portrayal of the life of a pioneer mother in Nebraska. Never before have have I been so deeply touched by a book. One sees in the book the sacrificial life of their own mother and those who have silently slipped away to make it possible for us to live happily.
Last night five of us teachers assembled at Suttons, the place where Estellene stays and spent the evening. Instead of cars, jazz and dancing we spent the evening happily by visiting, singing and listening to the radio.
We don’t have school on Friday the thirteenth because of the Mkd-Nebraska Exposition so its a choice whether to go to Central or to Allen. If I come to Allen do you wouldn’t mind if Miss Nurenberger rides as far as Wakefield with me, would you? If you seriously object I’ll have to find some way out of the predicament.k
This experience of teaching school is doing much for me personally. y outlook on life is clearing very much to my satisfaction. I have the feeling of security now that was so elusive while I was in school. Also I have the feeling that the choice of life vocation is more rapidly in the making.
Aid my busyness, I am to be responsible for our school float that will be in the parade at Columbus next Friday afternoon. This affair should be over by 3:30 then I’ll leave immediately to come to Allen.
A treat was mine last evening. Bernice needed to go to Central City to get some books so she invited al of us to go with her. Only six other besides herself. WE all piled into her Ford after school and “hit for home”. What a treat to be back there again. That place will always hold a special place in my life. It was good to see a goodly number of my summer prospects there in school. I certainly hope you didn’t feel as homesick for Central last year as I do now.
How wonderful I have felt today. Upon arising this morning I felt rested completely. I had been with you. Today I have felt so calm and confident that much would have been required to shake me. We did so many interesting things together,, shopping, seeing Mrs. Heizer, etc.
The girls who attended the reception at Central last Friday report that they had a splendid time. Their telling about it only made me feel more lonesome for “home”. Because I thought I would be tired tonight and because I had considerable work to do I didn’t go to choir practice as I suggested to you I thought I would. I’ll soon catch up on everything; then I can take time off for social affairs.
We’ve been on a spree tonight we teachers. Mrs. Sutton, the landlady of Estellene, invited us to have supper with them in Pawnee Park at Columbus in honor of their son’s birthday. We had a splendid time. En route to the park I stopped at home to get my laundry. My heart was touched when I dropped in at home to find it just home. The folks and kiddies there, doing the things they usually do each day when I’m away. They are trying out a new radio; they may keep it. It is certainly a keen one.
After supper at the park we gathered about the fire and visited until a flipped coin decided that it would be to the show that we would go. The comedy was the best part of the program.
I’ve been thinking about our honeymoon. I thought about going to the Great Lakes and scout out some schools. This thought sounded good at first but not so a little later. It now occurs that we might take a shorter trip to the mountains in June and then in August go east and while there attend the Young Friends Conference. Don’t you like that better? What I might do in between honeymoons is still a question.
It seems like a dream, Ruth, to sit and think thus. Only a little over eight months until the unrest that you began in 1924 can be satisfied.
Just one week ago at exactly this time 12:30 we were wrapped in happiness. Those minutes we spent together along the creek were precious ones.
It looks like things are working toward a happy time for us in about a month. Institute comes on Oct. 31 and Nov.1 then home coming at Central will be on Sat. the 2nd. At present I plan to go to Norfolk for the convention. If you can be there we will be together Thurs. and Fri. and on Sat. go to Central. Doesn’t that sound good? I’ll say!
Yesterday four of us teachers went to Columbus to shop. I purchased myself a new hat, some shoes, a tie, and a new shirt. After we finished shopping we all went home where we visited, had supper, listened to the radio, and just fooled around. The kiddies surely enjoyed talking to the women teachers. They were so interested in everything the kiddies had to say.
Upon returning home last night I found a special delivery letter was at the post. It was from Pres. Carrell relating that a boy who had come from Madison had suddenly left school and gone home after losing his job at the Clifford Cafe. President wanted me to go see him, but I’m not going. I think it would be a waste of time ,and anyway the boy isn’t worth running after very much.
I’ve had letters this week from both Mr. and Mrs. Carrel. It certainly does my heart good to hear from them. President reported that seventy eight were enrolled and that a few more were expected. Last year we only had 66. Football prospects are quite good too, I am told. I can hardly wait until homecoming.
This week will be a busy one for me because my team is to play in baseball next Friday. After this game we’re going to try playing a little football. In this I think we can’t do much this year except make a start. The boys are all eager for it, however. I want to get my Hi-Y under way too.
I’ve been wondering about a possibility that has been suggested to me several times before this year. That is the prospect of teaching in some academy. I think I’ll write to Pres. Carrell about the matter. If we plan wisely we should be able to save enough by both of us teaching to go to school for at east one year and probably more. Teaching with you will be great fun, don’t you think?
My work is running very smoothly now. From 7:30 until 4:00 I spend i study and class work. From 4:00 until supper time I have baseball practice, so you see my day is full. However, I enjoy every minute of it.
Today I enjoyed myself by visiting the first and second grade room and fifth and sixth grade room. The teachers and children were scared sick, but I enjoyed it. I have the privilege of doing as I please during one consultation period and I intend to use it frequently in learning all I can about school work.
Tomorrow closes my first month of teaching and that makes me realize that the time is passing very rapidly. Only eight more months. We have many things to do and accomplish in that short time too, don’t you think?
Each day of teaching brings fresh joys. Really, I fear that something must be wrong somewhere because teaching school here has none of the flavors that I had been warned it would have. Oh yes, we have our problems but nothing compared to what Merl and others said they had their first year. The more I study history the better I like it. I can completely lose myself for hours in my study.
You miss a great deal by having to teach in a community where there is so little community life or attention given to teachers. Here everyone is greatly interested in us – to the extent that we are continually being invited out. Again this evening we all attended Ladies Aid, at the other church this time. They served us a splendid supper.
Lucy, Kenneth, and Marion came over to the school house last Friday night to visit with me. My, its refreshing to visit with someone from Central. Lucy reports that things are running nicely at NCC. Their new cook, Miss or Mrs. Dixon, seems to be very satisfactory. Kenneth thinks she is a better cook than Mrs. Boone. Football prospects are exceptionally good according to Kenneth.
One month of school is over. As you say, you can’t see that you have accomplished a great deal. Mr. Kelly, the president of the school board, told me that everything was satisfactory so I have nothing to worry about yet.
We had an exciting ball game at Duncan last Friday but we lost. The score ws 2-1, which wasn’t bad. Now I don’t know whether we will play more baseball or turn our attention to other sports. I would love to have a football team bu we have no equipment and its questionable whether it would be wise to secure materials.
Last night I attended a stag party at the Evangelical Church and had a great time. I laughed until I ached all over. We pulled one stunt that nearly made us all sick from laughing so much.
Nothing would make me happier than to have the school board hire us both to teach here next year. You would enjoy this community I am very sure. When the matter of reelection is presented next spring I am going to tell them that I will not stay, if they want me to, unless both of us can teach. If only I have to teach we will go to a larger place if I can get another position. It would be so much better to have our own home and not have you teach but under the circumstances it seems to be the best if it is at all possible, don’t you think?
During the election, you will recall that I was very apprehensive about Mr. Hoover as a peace man. I very nearly voted for Thomas on that score. However, no president could have taken such splendid steps toward peace than Mr. Hoover has done in such a short time. This recent proposal of French Prime Minister Briand for a United States of Europe is certainly a momentous project for us to try to think of, isn’t it?
I envy Mr. Kruse his opportunity to play with you. Sometimes I wonder if you aren’t quite disappointed with me because I’m not musically inclined. It would be fun to be able to enjoy music as you do, yet of course I prefer y own interests. With Kruse to play with this winter shouldn’t be as lonesome for you as last winter.
Tomorrow morning three of my students make their first appearance before a crowd while they give readings. The are awfully nervous about it, as you might well guess. Do you remember when we used to give readings in platform reading class? My, it seems so long ago!
Already the car salesmen have begun to come. This morning one drove up in a new Ford Coupe but I sent him away without an invitation to return, at least until spring. I don’t quite see how I can buy a new Ford out of my earnings of this year. One costs about $665. I I knew definitely what we were going to do next year I could make more definite plans.
Sometimes I get awfully disgusted trying to make plans. It seems that there are obstacles which ever way I think. Life is a big gamble; you never know how things will come out in the end.
Whether we get married in June or later is up to you. I can be happy either way. If we waited until summer, I would prefer the latter part of July to the last of June. For myself I never worry; I now that I can fid work and plenty of it.
I wonder if you associates and environment doesn’t provoke you to feel that married life is all sacrifice and no fun. It hurts me a lot to have you take such an indifferent attitude(or so it seems from what you write) toward things in general. But then I suppose its my “fogginess”. I’ll not say more about it.I’ve had dandy letters from Guy Puckett, Kenneth, and Mrs. Carroll. It was a great joy to hear especially from Guy, because I have been so anxious to learn of his whereabouts. I’m enclosing his letter for you to read. How I’d love to be working with Guy!
My work is exceptionally heavy now due to the end of the first six weeks. I gave two exams today. Because I am principal I have to get out the report cards, check the absences and tardinesses, average the grades, etc..
We were royally entertained at a banquet given in our honor by the Episcopal Ladies Aid this evening.
You ask me to be definite about plans for the future and I promise I will be as soon as possible. You must never think my love so trifle as to not attempt to make conditions as happy for you as is possible. If to do that mean postponing marriage for two months then postponed it will be. My unsettledness is that same old problem that of deciding on what I should do. I wishI knew how and when to find the necessary help.
Yesterday I drove to Columbus to that I could be at hoe to get the football game at Lincoln over the radio. All of us were home except Lawrence and the folks greatly enjoyed our being there. Last night Dad wanted me to go with hime to help him buy a new suit so I did and we did pretty well, at least everyone was pleased with our purchase.. Harold had his girl at home for dinner today. She is nice looking but I fear there isn’t much to her. You should be glad I don’t treat you like Harold treats her. He gets “peeved” over petty things she says or does and then they quarrel. Harold goes around for days treating her as though she were a stranger. She takes it!
That reminds me, what do you think of Guy’s suggestion? As far as I am concerned unless you decide to be married at your home, there is no one I would prefer to have at our wedding more than Guy.
If you wee here tonight I could make up for the unkindness I have done you in my recent letters. Hurt by the knowledge tht it was I that destroyed the song in your heart I want to love that song bak. How tragic it is that our varying moods often cross the paths.
I’v been working with students at all spare moments on readings. Each Wednesday I am responsible for the opening exercise program and usually I give my oral English students opportunity for expression at that time. I greatly enjoy such work.
I’m getting unmeasurable satisfaction from my history work. I should never choose to teach in the grades I can appreciate why others prefer to do their teaching there. I am continually urged to grow and study; consequently I prefer above all else to study further and teach older pupils.
One of my boys and I had a round today that ended rather happily I believe. I sent him from class on one other occasion and today I felt it necessary to repeat the act. I had him stay in the assembly until school was out. then we convened for special conference. He was scared terribly but I didn’t get angry. I merely talked. However he has no misgivings as to what will happen on the next offense.
I don’t know what you will say when I tell you that today I bought a library of Standard Reference Encyclopedias. The ten volumes were given to me as a complimentary set provided I would give them a review by Nov. 15. They want my reference, so the man says, when they canvas this section. All I had to buy was new material that they will send me each quarter to keep the library up to date. For a period of ten years the service of keeping the library up to date will cost me only $6.95/yr. I have the encyclopedias here and I’m surely proud of them.
Judging from the appearance of my pocketbook ad bank account all of my ideas about saving money haven’t materialized. Of course, enough time and capital haven’t come into my possession to allow a fair test. If I save enough to carry us through until next fall I’ll be quite thankful. Its true that there are many things that demand money that one doesn’t foresee. Before spring I’ll have to get another car, whether new or used isn’t settled in my mind. Of course I could buy a new one just like ninety-five percent of car owners do now – on time. However, in view of our desire for more education I dislike very much to entangle ourselves with debts that will need to be paid next year. I could buy a good one for $100 and a trade. I know your dislike of old cars. The cars that I have bought thus far have been real cheap ones. The first cost $40, second $40 and this one $30 and a trade. I’ll see what I can do.
Now that dinner is over I’ll continue with my writing. We certainly had a good meal – we always have for that matter. I couldn’t have found a place where better eats are furnished. It’s nice to be satisfied, isn’t it I wonder if that isn’t a characteristic of mine – to be always satisfied with eats, etc. I was at home, at college, at Ferguson’s and here. Don’t you hope I get that habit ingrained within me before we start house keeping?
Congratulation are certainly due for Cora and Edwin. Wouldn’t you like to see Cora and Mabel? Do you know that when I woke up this morning I was dreaming about our having a little baby. Funny to think about that , isn’t it? Maybe that will never happen to us.
What do you know? Central defeated York last Friday 6-0. I was so tickled I scarcely knew what to do. The Central quarterback intercepted a pass and ran 85 yards for a touch down in the first quarter of the game.
Mrs. Sigea is washing dishes and I must go help her. Nurenberger is out to a picnic supper; she usually helps with the dishes but when she is away I help occasionally.
Of course I’d be dishonest if I didn’t admit that I hope for you to be, and know you will be, a real mother in our home; but, I want you to be able to express your ambitions and desires in service in the same way that I shall be enabled to. True equality between the sexes cannot expect other than that, in my judgement.
Tonight we had our Y meeting. It was just for organization and so necessarily a little dull. The superintendent is back of the organization thick or thin. Last night I visited on of the ministers to propose that the community have an Armistice Day program. He favored it. Thats the hardest part of such an undertaking – keeping your allies enthused. I greatly enjoy such work.
You must not hope for too sudden relief from you wisdom tooth. It usually takes those things years (literally) to finally get through.
Tonight all of us teachers, including Mr. Kotas, went to Creston to attend a Platte County teacher’s banquet. These are held several times during the season and the next one will be held in Monroe.We had a gala time. The first and second grades entertained us with their rhythm band I can understand now why you were so enthusiastic over such a project.
Last evening several of my boys and I went out grave digging. On a hill north of town that was once an Indian lookout several Indians have been recently unearthed and other relics have been found. we succeeded in finding a grave filled with buffalo bones, dog or wolf bones (the head of this animal was preserved almost perfectly) some pottery, flint, bone instruments, etc. The boys certainly had a big time; they dug like gophers.
Tomorrow school will be dismissed early for a pirate carnival in the evening. I’m going to Columbus to see the football game that will be played between Columbus and Fairbury Harold will play, so I’ told. He’ll feel big to have me see him play.
Friday afternoon I saw the football game at Columbus. Harold played splendidly. After the game I had a terrible headache – one that almost made me sick. I attended thePirate Carnival in the High School that evening but I felt miserable.
I had a wonderful time back in old Central again. There, I feel entirely at home. I saw many old friends and took care of some business left over from the summer. It surely seemed good to be back among friends.
For a time I found it possible to just stand on the campus and think. For a full fifteen minutes I stood on the east side of the campus facing the sinking sun and meditated ovr the six years that I spent at NCC. Those were wonderful years. Foremost in my thoughts were the many experiences that we had together on that campus. Central lost the game that they played with Omaha yesterday by the score of 19-0. Its too bad but it can’t be helped.
Quite an experience was mine at church this morning – the first like it I have ever had. After a long sermon the preacher began the communion service without any interruption. Being a Quaker who is opposed to such formalities, I had to decide what to do. Everybody else drank wine and ate the bread but I refused. People noticed it and I don’t know what they thought. I don’t care. Thank God we can act according to our conscience without fear of physical persecution.
a recommendation blank came this morning in behalf of Ralph. He is attempting to secure a loan from a loan fund at the university. One of the questions ass whether I am related to Ralph in any way. Shall I explain, “legally no” but “otherwise yes”? I’m glad to recommend such a fellow as Ralph.
It will indeed be fun to be with you at Norfolk. I’ll be tickled to see George; bless his old heart. I understand that he is getting on in his work very well. Of course we can depend on him being happy.
Mother told me the other day that she had been at awrence’s last week and she reported that they expected their baby by the first of december. She said that Lawrence was a big fool over the affair. He takes great pride in the baby clothes, etc. Rose of course is also very anxious.
A little misfortune has befallen our community today. Our bank closed its doors this afternoon. That is all the town is talking about now. Some of the teachers lost heavily. Miss Nuremberger lost about sixty-five dollars. I gave a check for eighteen
dollars lost Saturday which reduced my bank account to $3.55, provided the clerk came in before this afternoon. If it didn’t, then I lose $21.55. I’m afraid the clerk hasn’t had time to go through the necessary channels and reach Monroe since Saturday. Of course we may get our money; then again, we may not.
You flatter me by writing about me as you did last. More and more I’m convinced of the truth of the old saying about love being blind. In regard to the policy you should follow about buying, you must do as you wish. You know that I shall be most happy to have you buy a new coat whenever you need it – married or not. If you don’t really need one now, why, by all means wait until next winter. I surely don’t want you to feel that you haven’t any voice in the spending of our money (what little we shall have). Our married life shall be a partnership. You’re investing as much as I; therefore, why shouldn’t all matters be handled in a cooperative manner?
Last night I went hunting with Mr. Kotas and four of the boys. This was my first hunt in years but I didn’t fare so badly. Out of five shots I got two pheasants, and one rabbit. In fact I got more than any of the others.
I hope our bank reopens soon. Since my little loss I can’t tell how I’m going to manage through the next month without borrowing more money. I have a note that is due this month that will exhaust my check. Perhaps the debtors to whom I gave my no account check will be patient. Let’s hope so.
I’ve just come from meeting and so I’m in a good mood to be writing to my sweetheart. I was disappointed in my talk this morning but everybody seemed to think it was splendid, so I don’t feel so badly. It rather worried me to give my talk this morning because everyone when jut to her “prof” Ferguson, as I’m called.
I’m all prepared to go to Norfolk. Mr. Kotas said that we would dismiss school early next Wednesday to enable us to get a good start.
A letter came from Norstedt at Central today informing me that my check had not gotten through before the bank closed. So, I lost quite a little sum. Mr. Norstedt said that there was no hurry about my making the check good – I could do that anytime this winter. I’m surely thankful for all he has done for me in various ways. Too, the bank at C Cis very gracious to me. They wrote me telling me that they would be happy to convenience me in any way that I might need. With such a host of people behind me I have no fear about making ends meet after we’re married. If we should go to school and run low on finances I know I could secure any amount that we would need.
Last night Miss Rhea come over and we got to talking. Miss Rhea said she understood that Mr. Kotas wasn’t going to return next year if he could get a bigger job. She had heard several people say that they thought I could handle the pupils better than Kotas (I don’t’ think so). But putting two and two together, I may have a chance to be superintendent here next year.
Last Friday three of the boys and I went to Columbus after school to a fooball game. The boys and Kotas went hunting yesterday but I had to work and couldn’t go. They shot only seven pheasants. Dad may come out some night this week and go hunting with me. I hope he does.
What a time I’m having among these women teachers and Segias. They have such funny ideas about the relationship between a man and his wife. They think wives should do nothing but make a home and bear children. They feel that she should subject herself to the domination of her husband. The argument grew out of whether married women should be allowed in the teaching profession. Then Mrs. Segias said that in regard to politics a woman should submit to the ideas of the man. This is all “hooey” according to my way of thinking.
I’ve just returned from a committee meeting held at the Evangelical parsonage with a group of businessmen called together to consider the situation in which our town finds itself in view of the bank failure and to arrange some method of relieving our situation. After a long conference that I enjoyed greatly, we decided upon a program. We’re inviting all of the depositors of the bak to a meeting to be held this Friday evening. At this tie three speakers will appear. The purpose is to create a spirit of confidence in Monroe. Out of the conference I inherited the task of securing either Mr. Gray, president of the First National Bank at Columbus, or Mr. R.B. King, manager of The Hord Company at Central City as speakers. I greatly enjoy the opportunity to take part in such affairs of the town. In fact, its just what I want.
My set of short stories have arrived but they are still at the depot. I’m most anxious to see them. Won’t we enjoy reading them together next winter when its all cold outside?
Our community committee met again last night about generating community spirit. All the depositors of the bank have been invited. It has fallen to me to be master of ceremonies. I don’t know how I will fare with such a large undertaking, but I must try.
Another invitation has come to me that I scarcely know what to do with. I’ve been asked to give the address at a community Thanksgiving service to be held on Thanksgiving day. Of course I’d love to do it if I felt equal t the occasion, but Im like you are when you’re asked to play I feel so insignificant. I haven’t accepted the invitation yet.
There appeared in the paper today an article, so I’m told, that will be of interest to you teachers at Allen, no doubt. It was to this effect: a certain lady signed a teaching contract last year that said she should not get married during the year. She was married at Christmas time and consequently fired. She took the matter to court and the verdict that was given was that such a clause in the contract was an unjust restriction of personal liberty and consequently illegal. The school board was further forced to pay her the salary she would have received had she been allowed to teach from Christmas until the end of the school term. Maybe some day people will be rid of their “foggy” ideas about the teaching profession.
Today following dinner Nuremberger showed me how to play the piano. You know what kind of “music” I produced; but I did enjoy it. She showed me the bass notes and I practiced real industriously for about an hour. I can “squeeze out” “Silent Night” and one or two others. How I wish I could play as you do! But not so.
Our community meeting held last Friday was all we had planned and hoped for. The speakers had the desired effect on the audience. I greatly enjoyed my task. We are hopeful that our bank can reorganize.
We’re now planning a father and son banquet. I seem to be having more success than I had hoped for. On every hand I am asked to do things, be Sunday School teacher, C.E. leader church preacher, play in band, and general “flunky”for community affairs. I’m glad for opportunities to serve.
Yesterday I drove to Columbus and spent part of the day at home. I had a good time. Edith plans to go to summer school next summer and then the following summer. After that she plans to go right on to college until she has her degree. Its good to know of her ambition. If I can only help Harold a bit now, I’ll be quite happy.
Of course you’re coming to see me Thanksgiving. If convenient connections cannot be made, I shall meet you at Norfolk. We can be together all day Thursday and some of the time Friday, Saturday and Sunday. We shall only have one week vacation at Christmas tie to. That’s long enough for me. Should we take longer we would b out of school o May 23. By taking only one week we get out on the 16th. That will give us more time to plan for the summer and for next year.
Now that you’ve purchased your books, forget about the rightness or wrongness of the deal. I’m glad for your sake that you bought them. Perhaps you would have waited a long time to get them had not you done it now. I’m anxious to see them. If we continue to buy books we’ll have a library before we know it, won’t we?
Last night we had basketball practice and, of course, today I have been stiff. I’m well pleased wit the basketball prospects; we should win most of our games. It is interesting to watch the boys – they think that I must be a “whiz”, so to speak. It’s a good thing they don’t know all about me and my abilities.
Self analysis reveals a driving force to accomplish what I wish that might ruin us and everyone else. Teaching history only adds fuel to my desires. I’m hoping that we shall not need to wait longer than one year before we go to school. I’m quite well decided now on what I shall study – history government, and diplomacy. In intentions to study these subjects, of course, is that I can fulfill that larger service of administering to the needs of people.
How I wish I knew how you are feeling now! I wish Meyers had written again later so that I could have learned how you fared Friday. Ill be in suspense as I have been since yesterday until I hear from you again.
I’ve become pretty well acquainted with Mr. Smith, representative of the state department of trade and commerce, who is here in charge of the bank. Last Friday I topped in to the bank and had a long talk with him. He told me many interesting things about the banking business – some things that enable me to understand how to deal with a bank a well as how a bank should be run. Among other things he told me that his experience had taught him that school teachers and preachers were the poorest customers a bank could have. The thought rather startled me – not about preachers – but about school teachers. I went on asking him questions about the matter and he said the reason is because they live beyond their means. I know that is true, too. I’m not criticizing you because you so quite well, but I do criticize those who are gullible enough to buy so much that they have to borrow money to pay for it and then fail to pay the bank. They, in my estimation, are betraying the confidence that people have in them as public servants. One thing we shall always do is to take the proper care of our honest obligations and live within our means.
I’m going to Columbus this afternoon to see the folks and take in my laundry. Mother told me to ask if there was anything special you wanted for Thanksgiving dinner. If there is she will fix it for us. Chester has learned several little poems and stories that he wants to tell “sister Ruth”, as he calls you. He told me them this afternoon.
A sad thing has happened in this community last Monday morning. Mr. Pollard, a member of the school board and a highly respected man in the community committed suicide. Since the bank’s failure there has been an underhanded rumor that he was the one who caused the run on the bank. The rumor seems to be unfounded. Mr. Pollard was a faithful worker here in the Union church. In fact he sang beside me at church Sunday morning. No one suspected that such an act was possible by him and when told some wouldn’t believe it. His wife was away visiting a home here in town into which death had come. In this place a little baby had died. When she went home Monday morning her husband was gone. At about 10:00 a search party was formed. They found his car by the river bridge and later found the body in the water with a large cement block tied to his neck. Of course the whole town has been up in the air. That is all people can think of and talk about.
Of course I’m recording all you write about how we shall be married. Personally, I don’t see any reason for making a wedding a funeral. Why should it be? but I know it usually is. Do you suppose we could have it at your home and keep it from being sad? If we could I think everyone would be happier if we were married there. There is one thing that I had always wanted, either when we were married or soon afterwards, and that is that my folks meet yours. If we are wed at your place then y folks could be there. If its to be a sad, tear shedding event though I would rather be married elsewhere. From now on I shall say another more about this arrangement. Its up to you, anything you decide will be satisfactory.
You’re not much different than other i you desire for comfort. It is fundamental. It is true, thought, that your life has been well sheltered – more so than mine – though I haven’t suffered greatly. I hope you shall always be comfortable and happy – to that task I dedicate myself.
School was dismissed this afternoon for the funeral of the man who committed suicide. It was surely a sad affair. I don’t like such things at all. Now, I hope tale about this event will cease
I’ll be anxious to talk with you about this difficulty you seem to be having. I fear, though, that I won’t be of much assistance. I’m perfectly aware of the fact that both boys and girls at the age of your youngsters are capable of thinking and doing very startling things. I wouldn’t be much surprised if the girls around this particular boy were pleased with the drawing and perhaps encouraged him and others to do as he did. I can’t understand why the affair affected you as it did. Forget it, dear, and don’t lose your faith i those kiddies; they’ve acquired such habits from those older than themselves and they can be brought out of it. It’s not wickedness on their part; it’s pleasure and they can’t discriminate.
My boys are working industriously on basketball now – so much so that I dread to have to let down during Thanksgiving. I’m anxious to see the boys in action against an opponent. My material is certainly promising and the boys will work for me. The girls have offered us a supper and a cup if we win two-thirds of our games. I believe we will do it too.
More work! Last night I was invited down to the minister’s home. He told me many things about what had taken place between him and his friend Mr. Pollard. The more I learn about the affair the more complex it becomes. Well, Mr. Pollard was Sunday school superintendent. Mr Stewart said that he had been requested by several of the church to ask me to be superintendent. What shall I do? I’ve almost decided to undertake the task provided it doesn’t necessitate my joining this church. Until we get located permanently I want to keep my membership at Central City n the Friends Church.
Something has just been said that made me think of a reason why two of us might live as cheaply as one. It costs four cents to write one letter – 12 cents a week for us – multiplied by fifty-two weeks makes $6.24 apiece. ow, you see we spend about $12.50 a year for postage and stationery. No, I don’t regret a bit of it, its just an interesting item. Then add to that the amount we spend getting together – maybe we could live more cheaply together. We’ll see next year. Talking about money – within fifteen minutes after I had gotten my check for $133.35 I had spent about $110 of it. I’m beginning to see the end of my indebtedness. I’ll be glad when I’m through with that.
Though absent fro you physically we have been together very really since we kissed and said good bye at Norfolk. Naturally, I have been wondering how you fared on your journey. I rambled right along fro Norfolk to Columbus. At home I found that Mother and Chester had returned with happy stories about the new arrival and Lawrence and Rose.
Tonight I took my boys to Columbus to practice basketball. It was hard work for the boys but they need eery bit of it because we play our first game this Friday.
I’m reading a book called “As God Made Them”. Its a book of biographies. More and more I’m learning to like biography. Tonight I read the biography of Daniel Webster. I hope I can finish the book before I need to return it; better still, I wish I could buy the book for my own.
Perhaps I shouldn’t tempt you by asking you to stay with me but I do so want you to be with me You mustn’t do it, though; we would never be as happy as if we had waited. To you is due the happiness which we now enjoy because our love is respectable.
I wonder what you folks would think of you latest wedding ideas. I suppose your folks would rather lik to have us, together with my folks and Mr. Carrell, be at your home for dinner after we were married. That would be nice, wouldn’t it? It would be rather late, however, for us to reach a desirable destination by evening. Perhaps not though. It will be great fun to work out these plans with you.
I’ve been “head over heels” in work this week. Tonight I had basketball practice, last night Y meeting, and tomorrow night practice again. We play our first game on next Friday evening. In between ties I have lesson pans to make, lessons to study, letters to write, papers to correct and dozens of other little jobs. Oh, I’m having a good time! I should dislike to spend my life at my present work, there are too many larger things that I want to do.
Have you bought many Christmas presents yet? Don’t buy all of yours before I come up so I ca help you buy some of them. I haven’t purchased any yet and I don’t think I shall for a week or two. Won’t we have fun next year when we go to buy presents – that is provided we have any money.
The “hey bear” of defeat seems to shadow me. My boys lost their first basketball game last Friday night by a score of 15-8. It was a very good game though. We should win next Friday when we play Platte Center here. I wish we had a good gym; it would make my work so much more interesting.
I told you, didn’t I about our being invited to Creston by Ray Barnes? We went last night and certainly had a good time. There were nine of us besides the Barnes who had attended Central. Mrs. Barnes served a wonderful supper and afterwards we just talked over old times. before we left we sang “Old Gold and Maroon” and my heart almost wept for old NCC. Many memories came back to me of good old times. I hope those memories may often afford us much pleasure when we recall them. We were late getting to Creston because we had to wait for someone. When she didn’t arrive I cranked up “Nancy” and piled four of the girls in it and headed for Creston. Say, “Old Nancy” surely got us there too.
Upon thinking further of the plans for the plans for our marriage, I’m caused to have doubts about the plan you suggested. There I go making it harder for you by showing indecision myself. There is one feature about the plan that I dislike and that is the presence of so many people. Ill talk to your mother about it when I come up and see what she says. I wish you would make some suggestions about where we should go for our honeymoon. It is no easy matter to decide. I agree we should leave sight-seeing for another time but should we go east or west?
You are having some wonderful experiences through your work with Mrs. Heizer. I’m certainly proud of you for being able to have them. It would have been good to have been with you at the concert. I know how you enjoyed it.
Mr. Kotas announced today that the school board decided to have two weeks vacation. I wasn’t very happy about the matter but that didn’t help matters any. After the teachers voted once that they wanted only one week, several changed their minds and so it was decided on two weeks.
Last night we practiced basketball in Columbus. Afterwards I stopped at home and Mother showed me the letter that you had written to her. Of course she was glad to gt the letter and I was glad to read it. You are very considerate of what people do for you and I love you for it. Your letter to Mother made me realize how whole heartedly you had entered into my love and life.
Speaking of Christmas presents, I wish I could buy for everyone I would like to. Here are some suggestions for Merl: scarf, magazine, car robe, pajamas, shirt, sox, books, pen set, ties, pictures, bathrobe, shaving material, ring, pin, smoking set, and toys.
I agree with you i what you say about our marriage though I should dislike to do it on the spur of the moment. That sound absurd after we have been in love so long, doesn’t it? But you know what I mean. I think everybody would feel happy if we would be married at Central and then go up to your home ater we return from our trip. I know such a procedure would suit me perfectly.
I wonder what I shall do the early part of the summer? I hope that I can get some work and keep it up to the time we shall be married. Then we’ll rest and get ready for whatever we must do in the fall.
Procrastination and lack of funds have kept me from buying insurance, but today I bought some. I’ve planned on doing it for some time and the chance came when Mr. Pearson, our former baker, tried to sell me a car the other day. I bought $2000 worth for the present. I was puzzled as to whom I should designate as beneficiary – you or Dad. If anything should happen to me before we are married I should want you to have most of the insurance but it seemed best not to reveal to Mr. Pearson the fact that I was going to be married this summer. It won’t hurt this community to be i the dark as to what I am going to do. As soon as we are married I can change the policy and have it made to you.
I’m in such a good spirit today that this should be a good letter; you may be the judge. In view of the fact that I have quite a few things to get done and also that I want to visit you school for a day or two, I think I shall not come until on Christmas day. That will enable me to go to Central first, get my business over, be at home on Christmas eve, stay and visit your school, and be with you on Christmas day as well. Then you will have time to rest before I come. The only objection I have to doing this is that I can’t be with you as early as we would like.
I was rather surprised when I received a letter from Lewis Moon who is secretary for the Baltimore Yearly Meeting. He inquired whether I would be interested in taking a position a pastoral secretary for two meetings in southern Virginia. He suggested that these two meetings were goo; one of them in a small town, the other near Norfolk, VA. He also said that the staple crops in this community are peanuts and cotton. He also explained that as pastoral secretary my work would be somewhat less than that of a minister and more that of just a secretary who would supervise and encourage the work. I think I shall write to him to find out more about it, although I’m not looking for such work just now. We would certainly be a long way from home if we went down there, but I don’t think we will. I can imagine that Guy Solt has been spreading propaganda about me to some of these folks.
Surprising as it may seem, my boys defeated Platte Center here last Friday night by the score of 12-2. The game was a good one but I detest to see a game on such a floor as we have here. While we were winning, Columbus defeated Central City at Columbus 20-10. Harold was elected captain of their team last week.
Yesterday I went to Columbus and while there I underwent a physical examination for my insurance. The doctor said there was nothing wrong with me physically. You see I was anxious to get examined before we got married so that if any illness overtakes meI know it would be your fault!! Isn’t that wisdom?
When I came from basketball practice last night every part of my body ached. I had a terrible cold. Consequently I took a real hot bath and went to bed. I got up early to write to you and feel much better.
Christmas cards have been coming in. Your folks sent me a very lovely one. I bought seventy five cards and since and since I made my list I’ve thought of several more. Gracious, if this increases in proportion to my age I fear for the future.
Guy Solt sent me a note yesterday accompanied with a letter from Mr. Hodgkin, chairman of the new school in Philadelphia. Guy suggested that he thought I could well spend a year at this new school. Also that I should be careful not to get tied up so that I would lose my ambition to go on to school. No that I refuse to do. I realize how very great a temptation it will be to settle down and keep on earning, but we shall go to school in 1931.
I’m going to Central City in the morning. I’ll be at your place, dearest girl, on Wednesday afternoon as early as possible.